JLene's

Hot Chocolate - Wanna try for my darling :)

2011-07-06T17:31:00.000+08:00

http://blogs.babble.com/family-kitchen/2010/10/27/nutella-hot-chocolate-with-two-easy-variations/

2011-05-29T23:13:00.001+08:00

I really need more female friends.

Unless Boyfriend can trust me 1000000%.. lol..

Oh wells. Stress.

2011-05-08T16:51:00.002+08:00

Love darling Rahim BAR!

So proud of u darling, cos you're so smart and so determined.

Always support u! :)

MUACKMUACK LOVE U!!

TPDE - Friends

2011-03-26T23:19:00.002+08:00

I finally found friends that can accept jokes, and are cool with things.

<3

Damn sleepy..

2011-03-03T03:32:00.002+08:00

Really no mood and energy to study...

Eyes are closing..

Maybe I should nap a little.. Paper in 6 hours' time..

Hais..

I only hope I can pass this smoothly.

2011-02-08T17:40:00.002+08:00

Sometimes somethings just make me feel like giving up.

I really have no mood to do anything now.

Facing the wrong deeds.

2011-02-08T06:24:00.001+08:00

So much to say and do. Just a quick summary.

1) Get in talking terms with whole family.
2) Make people accept Rahim.
3) Do a apology letter/video to 'them'.
4) Clear things up with 'them'.
5) Have more mature attitude.
6) Be the nice girl, once again.

Attitude Problem

2011-02-08T05:36:00.003+08:00

I hope I don't get inherited... Syg save me..

I love you..

I want to be happy with u..

Everything happens for a reason

2011-02-08T03:25:00.005+08:00

Ok. Like I always say, everything happens for a reason.

Too many examples:
1) Dad didn't allow me to go Malaysia with Rahim; and end up I have a presentation that day. If he allow, I would have bought the ticket and wasted money.

2) Arguments - which you don't even know why it happen - this only helps you understand your partner more.

3) Which is the main thing for this post.

Yes I said bad stuff, I feel the words I used were overboard. But, the things that followed up were all positive; except for myself (but I don't mind). I don't mind people bad mouthing me. Although it's disappointing, it's ok cos I know it myself how much I care and love and want so much to teach them a lesson. I feel I have to help the relationship. Although I didn't planned for this to happen, it turned out good for them. They became stronger, better and they cherish one another more now. I can see I sub-consciously became a wake up call for them. I lose close friends. But so what, they gained one another.

Although I don't find myself wrong at all as every words that came out from them afterwards was so disappointing - like how they and the others actually talk behind my back - all the time. Well I knew that, all along, but I just close one eye. But nevermind, I feel, relieved now - not happy though.

Everything happen for a reason. They grew stronger, happier, deeper, tighter.. I did my part.

Just wanna end this post saying; true friends are not someone that side you when whatever happens - good or bad. It's someone will dare to scold you, teach you, help you, instead of just thinking in their head that you're childish but doesn't tell you. For me, as long as your welfare is covered, I find it worthwhile.
[Some goes to true love.]

Peace Out.

2011-01-13T19:15:00.002+08:00

i'm happy enough to be able to support you in whatever you do. =)

love u darling!!

YOU SO CHARMING!!

2011-01-12T02:53:00.004+08:00

Rahim bought me a Philips hair dryer and wrote a super creative and cute note for me, haha :D

So creative! =)

AND THE HAIR DRYER IS AWESOME! =D

Another step forward to better life!

I am simple. =)

P/S:
Seriously stupid J guy/girl. You're really being very childish and mean.. Not to me, but to Rahim.. I don't think you know him that well afterall.. You are just a very stupid and lifeless person.. Life must suck for you, that's why you wanna break people apart.. Really, I wonder, how old are you.. I don't know who are you. But I can bet, you know it yourself that you don't make sense, thus you don't dare say it in my face.

Come on, relationships, all have problems.. You know? I may be down sometimes, but please, don't try to determine anything cos you are really in your own world. You know NOTHING. I don't need your comments cos they are worthless and untrue.

Lastly, if you are a friend/my aunt/cousin, OR RAHIM'S FRIEND, we are really disappointed in you. Please now, leave us alone. Grow up. And accept your life, accept that people are happy.. =)

2011-01-10T23:36:00.001+08:00

Really. I don't understand what's so difficult.

I am really disppointed.

Is it really so difficult, to love someone wholeheartedly.

Hip Hop - Street Dance; Dance club - A dance club

2011-01-10T04:43:00.008+08:00

I don't wanna put on Facebook but I just find it irritating that, you claim the club consist of Hip Hop dance and Hip Hop dancers, but you actually emphasize on another dance club's production and not an international street dance event.

Which is more important? I say both. But why didn't you mention the other one at all?

It's really quite disappointing. Not supporting the whole dance scene, but trying to support another dance club and giving reason like "If you support them, next time when our production come, they will support us back.".

Sorry, I don't respect that.
Ok. Finish venting.

To whomever that are unpleased or pissed reading this, I don't wish to argue about it. So please don't start leaving me with harsh and lame comments. Thank you.

BYE.

3rd Jan 2011

2011-01-04T05:49:00.004+08:00

Morning Syg send me to school. 11am wake up together, Syg bathe till 11.30am, then I bathe then cab to school. 12.15pm reach Biz Park eat breakfast. Had Spaghetti + Pancakes, Syg had Chicken cutlet set meal (Wedges Soup Garlic Bread Coleslaw) add cheese! YUMMS. Syg drink Big Ice Milo; I drink Small Orange Drink.

1pm.. Walk together till Engine cargo lift. I go wait for lift Syg walk to bus stop meet Brian and Jonas.

MMNS term test paper 40/50, thanks to lenient teacher. 1.40pm end school 0.0
Call Syg. So decided to bus to AMK meet them. They going buy cash register at 4012 Ang Mo Kio Ave 10 #05-05 I think.

I reach at 2.33pm or so.. Drizzling. Walk into the furniture shop opposite the bus stop. Walk for about 10mins, Syg called and I told him where I am, he say he'll be walking here =)

They reach, I walked out to wait, then Rahim wanna go check out the cabinet prices on the way. So yeh. Cheapest is $299.. Range about $299-$499.. Not bad. But outta budget.

2.57pm leave the furniture place. Jonas late for class alrdy lol, at 3pm. Take cab Red Trans Big Cab. $8.80 reach TP TCC. Go TCC cos Syg need to poopoo first D:

He go level 2 toilet poopoo. Jonas Brian and I walk to Engine BreadBoard eat. They eat the beehoon and Nasi Lemak taiwan2 stall.. Syg come out, 3.30pm, order hot Teh and then decided to eat egg prata. VERY NORMAL -.-

3.55pm walk to TCC bus stop. Didn't see Frankie -.- Board 8 to go Safra cos thought he gonna wait at Safra. But at TP Main bus stop he call Jonas ask where are we, he at TCC -.- -.- -.-

Alight at Safra, Frankie in 23 behind. Walk to 9012 Tampines Industrial to Brian's uncle workshop. Reach 4.30pm... Talk talk talk talk talk.. 5.10pm... End, Kereen send us (Jonas Rahim me) to TP taxi stand...

Walk up the slope, to Biz Sch Cheers toilet pee. Then walk to Mensa as Jonas saw his K crew. Only me and Rahim go.. Buy Sugar cane but NOT NICE >:( Disappointing! Too much lemon taste...

5.57pm, walk to Squash Court.. Sit on the left of Squash court as Right got one cockroach. Talk, saw Jowell. She also cut hair. Everyone talking bout my hair D:

6.15pm liddat go into studio for GEMS 6 meeting.. Syg outside choreo for Juste Debout Singapore tags....

7.30pm meeting end. I go out find Syg =) Syg quarrel with Brian about Brian paying T-shirts using cash instead of credit.. Brian don't understand why -.- Hais. Nvm bout that.
Syg wanted to meet Jonas to talk about Brian. But Jonas got Choreographer's meeting. So we go off first. But Syg ask me ask Mev and Jonas if can meet later. So we walk to opposite school Watsons first buy my anti-perspirant(Rexona) and pimple cream(Oxy).. Pimple getting bigger each day :( And Syg buy facial wash Clean n Clear and a Metholdum or something brand's acne cream! $21!!!!!!

8pm, Jonas say ok to meet but he teaching his cousin at TCC till 9plus. So we ask him if want food, then go Techno buy J's cutlet rice, and my beehoon and Syg wanna eat BBQ Wing Rice.. :D $4.50 + $3 + beehoon forgot how much. Then Syg walk to buy $1 yummie milktea x2 one for Jonas. I collect western food then walk towards him meet him.

Walk to TCC together! :D Walk walk in drizzle again. Reach at bout 8.45pm? I think? Not sure. Nvm reach TCC, sit down find a spot after scolding Jonas and asking him to shift to behind a bit instead of nearer to reflection cos the ceiling is falling.

Sit down and eat Beehoon first! Then use Detol wet tissue wipe hands, then eat BBQ wing rice :D Drink milktea while eating fooodssss :D

After eating, training a bit hits near lift until Syg sleep on sofa (near the lift). Then about 10-15mins later Jonas done(about 10.15pm already), I wake Syg up.. We talk about Brian.. Until 11pm.. Walk to bus stop.. Stop at gate wait for Syg bus to come first. =) Kiss and hug and byebye Syg... 11.15pm..

Jonas and I wait for 8 together... 4mins wait.. Reach 201, alight and call Syg.. Talk.... until reach home.. Hang up.. Then call Syg at 12am.. Never answer cos Silent! Tapi Syg reach home already, JUST! =)
Then finally answer. 12.04am. Talk a bit, Syg say rest awhile then iron shirt then bathe. He did. After bathing sms me ask me what I doing.. I call back, Syg say he'll watch videos a bit then sleep. It's 12.49am.. I give Syg till 1.30am sleep!

Bad Quarrel. Hurting:: 1.30am call him ask him why never webcam me since he online. Then............................ check personal blog or sms...

24, 25 and 26 Dec 2010

2010-12-27T01:44:00.006+08:00

Before 24th,
20th Monday - Dance at Scape with my batch. Nathan, Janice, Aloy, Julih. Aloy and Julih reach first, then Nathan and Janice, then Alvin Xephry, Rahim, bla bla bla...... :D Fun! Talk to KLock and get to know got a battle tmr. I went to Syg house after that till late 2.40am then go home (I THINK!). At his house then he decided to join Zirca battle. Fas helped us find another group to join, which is Jolene's group.

21st Tuesday - Syg off. I go meet Eileen at 3pm at Bedok Sheng Siong buy fish ball hot dogs cucumber toothpick aluminium tray then go her house cook. CP fetch us at 5pm at her house then. Rahim stay home then went QUAN QI TAO at 3plus I think (check sms) then 4plus 5 liddat he go meet Zai and Dt at scape. They taking part in Zirca Br8kout 2010. Syg went Zirca at 7.30pm liddat. He reach at 8 like that. I was at F805 xmas party. Eileen and I reached first. We prepare, wipe the table. Then Rachel reach, then Shervonne reach, then Yt and Jl reached, then Kiat Ken Andy Shiyao Liu Chang reach, then Ming Qing reach. 7.20pm carolers start performing, NICE!
8.15pm then I walk to Buang kok MRT and train to CQ. Meet Frankie at the Bungey jump thing there then walk to Zirca, very near only, but Idk where, haha. So yeh. People were queuing. Syg called me ask me where am I I said at the queue, ahah, Syg was at the bungey jump la! So cute he thought I just gonna reach CQ. Syg walk back, kiss Syg! :D Hug Syg! :DD Then pass him his MITC white shirt and ask him bring my little plastic bag in too. I was wearing white MITC with the jeans he bought for me at Msia, and brown vans. Before that the the xmas party was wearing black mileage shirt. Syg wear Puma Black sweats and a plain white at first. Had some issues with invited guestlists, etc. Went in at about 9.30pm. Battle started at 9.45pm. Start tgt with Syg. His first battle at 10.30pm, Zai haven reach. They won first round. Slightly before second round, Zai reached. They won overall. $800 cash weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

After that, I talked to Fong asked why they won:
It was a draw first, then the tie breaker, D was off beat and Z was on beat. So Ben and Trinity gave Redline feat Zai and Fong gave Flair. Redline won. -.- A lot of people sure don't understand, could see from their unhappy faces with the result, whatever. Haha.

They went around looking for Ben. Found him outside. Dt Jeremy Rahim Zai Daniel Brendan etc talked to Ben and I call Frankie and Brian to come out. 11.50pm like that. We walk to Boat Quay indian food shop to eat (Dt Brendan Karen Zai Brian Frankie Jonas Jeremy Rahim and I)..
1am like that I think, cab back. Rahim Zai Jeremy and I cab. Frankie Jonas Brian cab as Jonas going Mev's house. SO yeh! :D

Reach home, bathe and sleep! =) (quarreled with grandma I think cos she throw away my royce chocolate box :( First royce of me and darling :( but i shouted and get angry not just cos of that box la it's cos i cannot tahan already staying in this stupid place, no privacy, not respected. no personal space.. everytime things must get thrown or moved or touched by others.. zzzz) Anyway, I think Syg didn't do a very good job anyway, haha he admitted he was trying to do bigger movements, etc, not concentrating on music that much. But I loved his battle SEH that day =)

Sleep and Syg wake up at 7.50am, bathe and cab to work. He not sweet this morning cos my mum extra say she'll wait for Rahim, Rahim say don't need already ma, make him stress and faster bathe and come out ask me call my mum say don't need wait. -.-

22nd Wednesday
Call cab, 8.20am.. 8.25am Syg go off.. Send him to door. Gave him egg tarts.
Taxi call me so I call Syg to tell him tell the driver he's not Ms Hong but Ms Hong booked for him. How I know he know and have been doing that, he cranky boy answer my call and say "APA SYG? I NEED TO TELL THE DRIVER LA!" IDIOT! BLEH.

Syg had Bishan chicken rice (with green baby fork and spoon) with his new friend at station for lunch today!
I went back and sleep back..... Till 4plus then I wake up and watch The Seventh Day, bathe, eat dinner, pack dinner for Syg, cabbage and egg with onion (I THINK) and a desert (TANG YUAN! - home made version). 6.40pm go take bus 8 and meet Syg at TCC bus stop. Syg just nice alighted after I alight.
Go level 2 eat. Mev late today. ZY too. YW and Jody never come. Brian reached.
Dance, WHICH I END UP SLEEPING. Idk why, really too sleepy. Brain like dead. They dance. I sleep till 9.40pm wake up watch them cypher.
9.55pm sit in circle, Rahim talk to them, then 10.15pm we pack, they change, and we go home! =) Bought Macaroni Cheese and Chicken and Cheese sandwich from 7-11! And a apple juice by 7-11 Fresh brand.
Walk home, I make the food, eat in my room and watch show, bathe then sleep..

23rd Thursday
Syg wake up quite on time. Bathe, he go work, I didn't wake up to send him out :( Sorry dear. Anyway Syg reach at 8.38am, on time! =) Yay. Bla bla bla. Syg went Shop n save at Bishan to buy things with his station ppl with their welfare vouchers or whatever. He then had Tomyam! Then at night keep telling me the tom yam not as nice today cos never eat with me! HAHA SO CUTE!! :D LOVE MY DARLING!!! =) He's seerious leh not those cheesy talk kind. So ya, haha. LOVE MY SYG!!!!!!
Anyway, I sleep till like 6pm I think, LOL. Suppose to dance with Wanling Nathan and Benjo locking but sleepy. So lazy go.
Lie on bed watch show... I forgot what show... Anyway Syg end work already so he wanna buy phone!! :D He go check it out at AMK, go promo, he call me and tell me he might be buying!!!! $600 plus drop to $248/$268 only cos the person say he can change don't know whatever plan, etc. YAY!
But need to wait so Syg walk around, looking for things to buy buy don't have, then he went coffeebean to chill and read book. Then go back Singtel.. 8.33pm, HE BOUGHT PHONE! I call him, but he got a lot of things in hand so he reach home then call me! =) Then we just chat online lo~~~~~~~~~ Until 1plus Syg bathe and talk a bit and sleep. I sleep at 4am.

24th Dec 2010 Friday.

Syg half day. End work at 1pm, I was late. So I cab all the way to his work place. Reach at 12.30pm and Syg just come out! =)

Train to AMK hub to check his new phone camera! HTC HD7 :D $248 I think. With new plan.

20% discount to overall bundled bill!

Go AMK hub already, go Singtel and the lady taught us how to use. Done, then walk around to find his phone cover a bit. Don't have, so train to Bishan to see see. Eat Pizza hut first! :D

YAY!

Had the Christmas promotion meal, not bad, with the drumlets and meatballs. The meatballs suck! D: Not nice. NVM. Can't finish, da bao 2pcs of pizza and 2 drumlets to his house. Walk around at j8 first. Till bout 3pm? Then take 55 from oppo Bishan MRT to his house, rest awhile, his mum don't wanna go out and didn't wanted us to da bao any food for her also, so yeh.

Reach his house and his sis wanna go out. So bring her to AMK central. Walk around for Syg phone cover again, then went the book shop beside sports link. Buy some things for Nora, diary, etc. I wanted to buy a new Erke bag but didn't wanna regret cos later going town (supposedly). After that went NTUC to walk around. His sis so irritating cry and cry wanna buy scooter, but called back home his mum say don't allow. So pacify her, walk around, buy ice cream, 6.30pm, bus 261 back to Darling house and Syg suddenly realise today is Xmas eve! -.- So can't go town, cos it'll be stupid to go. Lol. So end up resting at his house jerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

His mum cook fried rice. So we eat, use computer, watch show, rest, bla bla, then 11pm like that cab to my house and use computer watch 2 episodes of The Seventh Day, play around, haha, Syg wear my light blue top and I video down. Talk talk, then bathe at 2am. Then watch a bit more of the Seventh Day and sleep at 4am! :D

25th Dec 2010 Saturday
Suppose to go TP dance train ourselves (Esp syg) at 11am, but 10am wake up, Syg too sleepy and tired. And he don't know say what Frankie don't wanna go, so we sleep back till about 12.50pm, wake up, Syg going to meeting, we brush teeth tgt then suppose to eat beehoon, BUT I realise someone hang my clothes. KNNKNNKNN. It's my mum, and she go and put my bolster (with dust mites that cause itch on my skin) on my clothes. So I called her and tell her but she replied being angry and shouted bla bla so I quarrel with her and dad woke up by my voice. So it was already 1.40pm or so but dad talk to me till 2pm.. Lucky Syg smart and go bathe first. He came out and I go home crying, Syg sayang me and I request to go with him for meeting, cos I don't wanna stay home and face those typical adults. Sorry to say this, but adults can really be very egoistic. Anyway, so Syg sms Mitc and inform them I'll be tagging along. I hurriedly bathe and wear lens, etc and Syg pack the beehoon along and we bring to take cab to simei.

While climbing down the stairs at my house, we decided to buy ANOTHER PACKET OF BEEHOON (saying tgt) at Simei MRT. :D

But Syg then say he wanted kway teow. So we cab to Simei and bought Kway teow with chinese CHICKEN sausage, fish cake and egg. And bought a milk tea with less mini pearl at sweet talk. Then buy 2 coffee 2 tea 1 teh c at kopitiam then walk to Frankie's house. We reached first. Jonas got something on and Brian late -.-

3.17pm we reached and we eat our food. Dad bought the beehoon was with fish cake! Syg eat beehoon I eat kway teow first then later exhanged. 3.45pm finished eating then slowly poor coffee and tea and went to F's room. They start discussing only at 4.10pm or so cos like weird, only 2 person. Haha. I sit on the floor and play angry birds :D.

4plus near 4.30? or 5 Jonas came..
Brian still missing.
They discuss but until 5plus Rahim say let's ask Brian to come, but Brian is unreachable. They discuss a bit, chat a bit, watch video a bit, talk bout dance, until 8plus, F go fetch Joyce and bout 9pm, we went to the dining table and enjoyed the feast Frankie's mum prepared, AWESOME! Healthy and yummy. Beef, lemon chicken wing, brocolli with mushrooms(normal one and jing zhen gu), salad with apple, egg, cucumber, etc in it, and spaghetti! :D So nice.

I ate a lot, haha last to stop eating. Rahim's stomach like getting smaller and smaller. Anyway, drank Coke and Syg drank green tea. 10pm finish eating and decided to go look for Brian at his house.

He was having issues with Kereen. Hais, he and his cannot face it attitude. Hope he'll change! But so Mitc talked, me and Joyce just crap around, haha, then 10.45pm, Brian go bathe and pack and we all walk to Frankie's house for desert!!!! :D Beancurd skin with barley and don't know what. Some mini hand made tang yuan with no fillings. :D

Brian had his dinner there too, while we have our desert. 11.40pm liddat, Joyce went out, Frankie sent her, Brian wash plate, Darling Jonas and I went into the room. They use computer and I play games on galaxy again. Talk cock some times, they discuss, watch some dance videos, discuss, Brian do proposal and contract, all until 4am, Syg do a research job allocation to everyone and we pack and leave.

Cab home, stop at Street 31 and walk in. 4.40am reach home and Syg bathe, I sweep, I was suppose to bathe but something scary happened. Syg send me to toilet, I close the door and I shouted "I WILL BE VERY FAST!!!" and someone instantly replied me, mumbling something like "hmm, ok.".. I can't really hear and it didn't sounded like darling, so I shouted "HUH? APA?" and no one answered, goosebumps came in and I shouted "SAYANG!!!!!!!" so loud I could hear my echo from the window. Syg didn't came, so I took e courage to open the door, and shouted again. Then Syg came. I freaked out. I don't dare to bathe anymore. Wanna shit, so Syg stand outside and accompany me. But I just don't dare. So didn't shit.. D: Hurrily did a quick wash up, wear clothes then brush teeth and wash face with Syg beside me with door open. Done, then go change into a new shirt, and slept.. Told Syg exactly what happened. Syg hug me to sleep.. What a scary night. It was 6am when Syg fell asleep and I fell asleep at 6.15am or 6.20am.

26th Dec 2010 Sunday
7.15am, HYY came home and woke me up. I try to sleep back.. Then 12.20pm then I wake up and wake Syg up and Syg go bathed. 12.45pm Syg done so I bathe too. 12.55pm came out but it's late already.. So no choice, have to cab. Sorry darling. 1.12pm pack 2 packet of tutu kueh and one tuna puff and went to take cab. Stupid driver u-turn then u-turn again to go from Simei PIE. DUMB. He still can say "No one go that way one la" (that way as in just turn left and go from Safra PIE). Lame. NVM.

Reach TPY int at 1.40pm. Waited and eat our tutu kueh and puffs, bought a Dasani. Sat at below 145 the escalator there and wait for Brenna Weilun and Aaron. They reached at 2.15pm or so, walked to JOMS in drizzle. Syg go pay and I open studio and dance dance dance I never dance cos 30mins only -.-. 3.10pm got people booked the studio, so we went off. Still raining, walk to 139 bus stop and 139 just nice reach. Bus to TPY int, they wanna eat too so we eat at Koufu tgt. I had GOLDEN GARLIC CHICKEN (preserved veg with chicken) and Syg had a lame curry chicken noodle. He talked to them bout history of Hip Hop, etc.

Till 4.30pm like that, we go walk to find phone cover. Found one for temporary use then walk to take MRT back to AMK. On train, realise that the cover right, the inner part will have mini threads or furs or whatever sticking onto the phone!!! D: Sian. $6 leh, waste money :(

Reach AMK, walk to interchange take 261, reach Syg house at bout 5.20pm, but his mum decided not to go out. So I went to his room and sleep alone on the floor, head on his bed. DAMN SLEEPY :(

6.05pm liddat I woke up and no one was around in the room. His house damn quiet some more. Scary. Lucky Nora was running around. 10-15mins later then Syg came into his room, he was at his mum's room. He tell me his mum wanna go Teh Tarik that just open at allow bus 265's route. But he wanna rest awhile.. 5mins.. So we sleep, TILL 7pm! LOL

I hurry wake him up, he wake up, go living room, then I hear them talking talking.. Then he came in and lie down again, saying his mum and dad lazy go out, tired. So we just sleeep! :D
Then 9pm then wake up, with a super bad dream:

I was with Eileen and her bro and Rahim at a void deck, Frankie's house void deck alike but it's my house. But Eileen stay at level 5. We were with them cos Eileen house got ghost and we're suppose to help her. There were 3 lifts. 2 lifts came together and the one Rahim and I was nearer too came and 3 men were inside. We both thought they were ghost so we just act like we never see them and walk in, without Eileen and her bro. In the lift, the man nearer to me did a prayer for us and Rahim, for idk why, told him our particulars, address, etc. He then did a prayer for me and I said thank u. Exiting the lift, I suddenly feel fearful and hurried back to my house. The corridor was like Balestier's and the interior of the house was instead like Tampines Block 321..
I ask darling to faster lock the door, he didn't understand why. I then got pissed and repeated: "LOCK THE DOOR HURRY!". Syg then lock the gate and the door and we walked to the toilet, halfway thru, someone knock on the door. We went to open and saw a messy hair, big eyes, 40s-50s woman standing, saying she can be our maid and clean our house. The house, was ours.
I was afraid, I know what was she up to; to get more info and then later sell me to be a pros or beggar at some country.
Syg was just shock. We rejected, lock the door and Syg comforted me, we just went into the toilet tgt and wash our feet. When we came out, the woman was already in my house. Walking around. WTF.
In the dream, we just don't dare to do anything to her, we asked her to go out but she didn't want to. She would stare hard at me with her big eyes and I would just dare not defy her instructions. So we let her be, but hurriedly lock the gate and door as she left them opened.
After locking, someone knock again. We open and the person asked in a scary pervertic tone "Would u like to know more about KFC history?" - he was wearing a purple formal shirt and black formal pants, and a white polo tee man beside on my right and a female behind on my left. I know him, i've seen him before but now I've forgotten his face already. Idk why I did not dare defy his instructions, again, feeling like I am being hypnotised, I said ok softly, and he showed me a KFC breakfast coupon. -.- Exactly the same as what is on my table, NOW. THIS MOMENT. A 4.90$ KFC breakfast that consist of milo and Twister Original meal.
I took the coupon and close the door. Idk where was Syg when the KFC man is there. When I close the door, Syg and I then went to talk to the woman, who was sitting at my parent's bed. I beg and please her, asking why she wanna do this to me. Just when she was almost to be persuaded, I woke up, by Nora's playing with a ball sound.

Ok dream end. The scary thing is, I had a similar dream months ago; same place, same issue, same auntie. Just that I was alone. Damn scary. I woke up and woke Syg up, shaking him hard. He ask me why, and I told him everything, Syg too, find it weird and eerie. But he comfort me and it was 9.30pm already, I am hungry so we wanna go get some food. Nora kpkb wanna follow -.-. So her dad say just let her follow but he say provided she don't ask for anything, she said ok. Ok LOR, so we went McDonalds. I had the McBistro chicken sandwich meal, never upsize, drink Ice lemon tea and Syg order an additional McChicken burger.

Gave Nora some fries, but she asked for more, so irritating, and Syg still can give. Then she even ask for a bit of the McChicken burger. I asked her "what did u promised ur dad just now?" and Syg gave her the burger ZZZ TO THE MAX. Stupid Syg, spoil her only.

So I was kinda pissed, so I never talk, just drink Ice lemon tea, eat ice and Syg realise I angry. 5mins later then walk back to his house. He pacify me say sorry and I explain to him why I angry then I threaten I'm not gonna have a kid next time cos he's just gonna spoil him/her, Syg say "no, i will love them." , me "don't want. not gonna have kids. later i scolding them then u over there help them", syg "of cos ma must one person scold one person sayang" me "YA, but not at the same time right! sayang is after that what!" syg "oh ya hor heeeheeeheee sorry la ok la ok la~~~" me "u fat"

Then we reached his house. 10.20pm lo........ Go into his room, talk, don't know what to do, Syg suggested to use computer and check if Zirca battle is out. So we did, not out yet. Darren talked to Syg so we see what link he pasted. A idea for SDD - That Girl by Frankie J (any dancers that read this pls don't bite, thanks.)

Then Syg posted about the lame bitch that is commenting on my tagboard now. Really, certified, CHILDISH. Why would I believe some lame bitch instead of my own darling? LAME RIGHT. -.-
I WILL LAST LONG WITH RAHIM. U JEALOUS THAT U HAVE NO TRUE LOVE? LOL.
I PITY U.

Anyway, so yeh, until 11.22pm, I go salam his dad, wear shoe and walk to traffic light there to kiss hug then wait for cab cos got 4-5 indian teens slacking at our usual waiting spot. 11.32pm got a old comfort cab, indian driver then just woke up in the cab. He never on light, forgotten. Lucky Syg realise and call me and I tell the driver. He lame wanna go CTE (SLE), when I am going Tampines right..... nice.......
Went by CTE BRADDELL BARTLEY KAKI BUKIT FLY OVER TAMPINES TP SAFRA CHURCH 201 STREET 33 BLOCK 321.

Don't dare to talk lift, so took stairs. Reach home at 11.50plus pm.
Call Syg, Syg bathe first, I eat ice, HYH and steph came back so I more guts now, as I feel safer, keep the hanged clothes, SHIT (SONG BO), bathe, and sms Syg. Syg done, sms me and I call Syg and Syg sleep first. =) Now I blog blog since 2am wa lao, damn long. It's 3.35am now.

Tmr just gonna stay home and chillout. Rahim darling meeting Darren at Scape to train and practice.

Tues Mitc have meeting in afternoon till don't know what time.

Weds Noon gonna cut hair at Linda's and evening Wed dance training.

Thurs dining at Seoul Garden with Mitc and gfs and maybe meeting Keiths after that.

Yup, bye....

19th Dec 2010

2010-12-20T04:08:00.004+08:00

Woke up at 12.20pm.
Syg bathe, I bathe.

Had brunch (KFC Bandito and Syg had a Malay rice), dad bought.

1.30pm left home, cab to Jalan Rajar for his class. Only Adele and Wuman today.

Learnt running man, but I couldn't breathe, too cold, so didn't really learn. Just stretch (split) myself at the mirror and then 3pm do crunches (one song) with Darling.

3.30pm walk to Rochor Beancurd and I drank cold michael jackson Syg ate hot bean curd mix with grass jelly.

3.50pm or so walk to Balestier plaza, show Syg around at level 2 shops and level 3 void deck, walk one round then walk to shaw plaza bus stop. Waited for 130, took to Bugis Junction and change bus 12 to Clarke Quay for Natasha Studio instructors meeting. Suppose to start at 5.30pm, but Larry was late. We reached at 4.55pm, bought a Teh Peng and Michelle told us Larry will be late so we walk around, went up to garden at level 5 but didn't go in as we have no access. Walk thru the carpark and look out to the garden awhile =)

Took escalator near gym down to shops. Went to a unique shop that sells unique crafts stuff. Syg took a name card after asking what does the cutting machine does. The lady was polite and her service was good! =)

Continue going down until Level2, saw S.T Louis shop on sale, was suppose to just buy a key pouch at $3.90, got my current fave colour blue (with gold), so chose as a coin pouch and key chain. Then in the shop, a almost turqoise /blueish or whatever coloured bag caught our attention and we liked it! :D So Syg say "Syg want?, Kita buy for Syg la =)" YAY!!! :D

I like that colour a lot, somehow WEEEE =) Actually wanted a brown coloured, more formal bag, but preferred the turqoise-ish one more. So yeh!!! Paid with his DBS visa credit. Total $49 + $3.90!!

Turned around, saw a necklace that suit Rachel a lot, so bought for her as X'MAS gift. =)
Also saw another necklace for myself! Silver in colour. YAY!

Sorry Shervonne Liani Weeqi I no money plus I don't see anything that suit you all and I can afford! D: BUT MERRY XMAS! :D

After that, it was 6pm already so went back to Natasha, but Larry only reach at 6.20pm or later. I sat outside play Angry Birds Seasons and fell asleep after awhile. Fell down from the sky twice, lol.

Woke up at 7.15pm and played the Labyrinth 3D game. Completed the difficult round 64 and 73 going to complete but Syg come out already. So I went to pee, then Syg also pee, then walk to MRT. Train to Serangoon then take circle line to Bishan. 8pm.

Went Singtel shop awhile as Syg wanna change phone, so look around. Decide decide, until bout 8plus idk what time la then walk to Opposite Junction 8 the bus stop to take 55. Bought a Heaven and Earth awesome apple tea! =) Small bottle one.

Reach his house bout 9pm, cool down in his room awhile then go eat ASAM PEDAS! =) YUMMY AWESOME WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE with spinach and big red chili and ikan bilis. YUMMAYE. Drink apple tea to get rid of spiciness! SO YUMMY THOUGH. WEEE. LOVE IT.

Was about 9.30pm or so, sit around in living room, then go his room use computer awhile, to check the TPDE Dance Together and F805 Xmas Party event wall. Then 10pm nap till 10.30pm, go out salam his parents, wear shoe and Syg send me to take cab home. WA THE CAB AUNTY DAMN ZAI. SHE LIKE near 60 YEARS OLD but drive damn fast and zai. 80km/h - 90km/h liddat. SONG BO.

And she very friendly and got service. NICE. I like. She speaks not bad english too.

11pm reach home Syg finish bathing. I preparing tmr dance together at Scape things. The speakers, etc. Need to bring 2 speakers. Sian. Then 11.15pm miss call me I didn't hear, then 11.18pm he call me and I answer and say sorry I packing the speakers! Cos I was trying out the volume and stuff. So jaga jaga Syg a bit to make him sleep, so cute lalalalalala =)

Then he slept at 11.45pm liddat. Once hang up, I pack the bag for tmr then do card and wrap Rachel and Eileen gift. Very long never do, sorry hor if ugly.

Do until 1am! Lol. Then pack up, then pack my wardrobe a bit. Cos a lot of clothes. Keep the clothes outside, fold and put properly. Thought of a way to maximum space usage of wardrobe; hang Syg's undies and face towels instead of folding and stacking. Yeh~

1.30am go bathe and sms Syg to save as diary..

2am finish bathing, and not really sleepy yet so eat ice and watch show.. Show DAMN BORING OMG. It's a show called "Zai Xing Zi Lu (the u got two dot on top)" , actors Lam Fong and Wang Zhong Zhe Liu Song Ren and China people. Damn boring. So decided to watch the Zui Mei Li De Di Qi Tian again cos just now don't know at Natasha/in MRT there I was telling Syg he should stop watching Forensic Hereos II and watch The Seventh Day instead. It's nice and touching and I wanna see him cry. :D I told him the show is about this girl keep having cancer and he say sounds funny. Haha.

Ok anyway, so yeh now it's 20th Dec 2010 MONDAY, 4.33am and I should sleep now.. Gonna lie down already after this. Syg need to wake up in 1 hour's time. Later got session at Scape need to wake up at 1plus.. Need to reach Scape at 4.30pm.

OK BYE I LOVE RAHIM ALWAYS =) AND HE LOVES ME TOO.

FUCK THOSE THAT TRY TO BREAK US APART.

17th and 18th Dec 2010 update.

2010-12-19T05:33:00.002+08:00

I am Jaylene Hong Wanling.

17th Dec 2010
I couldn't sleep last night so didn't sleep so at 2pm start bathing and left house. Wore Echo Park jeans, yellow and white stripe tank top and brown Vans shoe. 3pm went out to take 9 to Simei then train to Orchard meet Syg, board his train towards Marina Bay, alight at Raffles and change to Tanjong Pagar. He need to send some file to some office.

While walking there, drizzle. After Syg went in to send the file, it rained. So when Syg came out, we discuss to take cab or bus. Idk cos we not sure where to take bus. So I was still deciding but Syg decide to take cab so he suddenly just walk and ask me faster. I have not eat (only ate the apple energy bar Syg bought ytd so he gave me one to try while waiting for him to send the file), so I was super super weak. It was 5.25pm.

So I got cranky and show Syg bad attitude; SORRY! :( No cab, so we walked back to MRT then Syg ask me eat at the food court (mini), but I not in the mood (cos walk to MRT he never coax me at all! :() so I say don't want, just walk. And we train to Clarke Quay, quarrel till walk away awhile. At the taxi stand at basement. I walked up to level 1 and sit down, then I walked back after 4-5mins. Syg then called me, so I said I am at the taxi stand, so he came and find me sitting on the taxi stand bench. Talk talk, darling coax me back, make me smile then persuade me to eat, I still didn't want to eat so only bought a teh peng and Syg drink a little.
It was 6.15pm already.

6.30pm Robin's class end and Syg went to teach. I sat outside with the Teh Peng, talked to Robin a little, and watch Syg teach. Until 7.15pm or so Mel and Elke came, we talked, then 7.30pm Syg class ended, we stay and talk awhile with them, Robin came back. Talk talk.. I decide what to eat cos I was really sleepy already, no mood to eat. But decided to just go the foodcourt at that level to eat some paste Robin recommend, but went there and the food he recommended was seafood! D: So I just ordered a Chicken with Mushroom (red sauced one) and Syg ordered a Bolognaise.

Food came 5mins later, Syg drank healthy Root Beer. I think. Finish eating at bout 9pm.. Then I go pee (I was feeling really giddy!) then bus stop says bus 12 coming in 18mins, so we just took train back. Got seat, lucky! Train to Simei, it was 1030pm or so, then cab home from opposite MRT cos Syg tired..

Reach home, slack, use computer, talk about last time's dating time Syg flirt with me, so cheesy, etc... and so cute :D .. I bathed, Syg sweep, then Syg bathe, I set bed, and the rest of the night has been recorded in my phone diary! =)

18th Dec 2010
FB production was good; entertaining, and I enjoyed it a lot! =)

Woke up at 12pm, roll around, slowly wake up, Syg bathed, I bathed, then cab to Simei to eat lunch at the NTUC foodcourt below MRT track.. Reach at 2.05pm and Jonas came at 2.30pm. I wanted to have the Omu rice but closed, so I had Teriyaki Chicken set, Syg had Tomyam fried fish. Eat already, about 2.47pm walk around cos I need more food to last me till FB production end, which is late, so bought Long John Silver new item; Beary Hot Chicken and Fish. -.- Not hot at all. But not bad, peppery.

Then walk to buy Mr Bean; Tau huay plus rice balls plus soya bean; NICE!
Then walk to the kopitiam to dabao some coffee and tea, then walk to Frankie's house. Brian just woke up at 2.58pm when we were at Mr. Bean.

Reach Frankie's house at 3.12pm, Frankie was few seconds behind us. We went in, I eat my LJS at the dining table where they say and talk as well. Till 3.45pm Brian came we just ignore but Frankie's dad opened the door. So yeh.. I can't finish so Jonas had the last half chicken. Then went to the room and they start meeting. Frankie's dad came in and say don't leave the food open, will attract flies, omg his dad is so neat! So nice, hope Rahim darling will be like this in future! =)

Then I waited till 4.10pm, wanted to leave already, took my phone that is charging since 3.40pm, and saw Fas's sms saying she'll only reach bout 5.30pm -.- so went back to the room and sleep a bit, till 4.3opm. Then I wake up and leave. Syg sent me to the lift. YAY! Kiss syg. Feel so poser. Haha, wore the Echo Park baggy jeans darling bought for me from M'sia (NICE!) and Mileage tank top, and a pouch, and a Fox yellow jacket, and Vans brown high cut shoe.

Went there alone by train (Circle line to Bishan), saw Jesscy Fion Suria, sat with them till Diana and Amanda came, sat with them then Janice Alvin and Irfan came. Then Nicholas Shirlyn Xephry Marcus Zheng Yi Wanling bla bla only came at 7.05pm! -.-

Then went in, sat middle back and show started at 7.47pm.

Was good..

Ended at 9.15pm or so. Dilly-dally, talked to Edison Brendan.. Non-performing people too like Mel, Jacky Tyron..

Waited for Marcus to be done with his Soka peeps, then everyone walk to MRT tgt. At MRT there then Nic Marc say gonna eat with MeiChin who came back to Singapore. So Janice Alvin and I decided to go off first lor. It was near 10pm boarded train, took red line then circle line to Paya Lebar, Alvin sent Janice to PL then we train different direction. Janice and I took towards Pasir Ris line together. Chatted and I alighted at Simei, find Syg at Frankie's house. Full Mitc was there.

2010-12-11T20:24:00.001+08:00

I don't know if this is called stupid or not.

I only know what I really want in my heart.

2010-11-27T01:13:00.002+08:00

I don't know what's the thing that is holding me back.

I want to let u go. But I can't.

I think u've really taken me for granted.

I can only think of the first day we talked. The first day we met.

Please, treasure me like how u used to.

I really need to let go. Hong Wanling, stop dreaming. Stop wishing.
Stop hurting yourself.
Let.Him.Go.
Don't forget the pain.

Choose.

Everything happens for a reason

2010-11-20T21:51:00.002+08:00

Just a random thought-

Everything really happens for a reason!

1) Why are there ants in this world?
- So that when you have diabetes and you pee, ants will be attracted to the toilet bowl; that's when you realise you have a problem thus you'll see doctor! =)

2) Why Rahim darling and I quarrel until so jia lat that time?
- So now we treasure one another more! And when we quarrel and argue, we discuss everything and we understand one another more now! =) We stopped quarreling for very long. Because now we're more loving and accomodate to one another more. We love each other even more.

3) Why was I so harsh that I scolded TPDE last time?
- It's all because I scolded TPDE that I met Rahim. =) I love you Darling!!! =)

So yeh. Everything DO happen for a reason. Just stay positive! =)

=D

2010-10-11T23:52:00.002+08:00

Today we wear the same shirt! Without planning!

We never meet but at 11.51pm we on webcam and we're on phone then Syg say 'Aiya we wear the same shirt today.. heeeee mmmmm'

=) It's the MITC HunterGreen! :D
LLalalalala

Damn long never blog. Just realise my typing speed is decreasing. Will blog back soon. And need to back up my blog lo..

BYE!

2010-07-30T14:45:00.002+08:00

sometimes i just feel like saying.
stop wishing me.
because i am not happy at all.

because i suck.
because i am a jinx.

because the one that claims to love me have stopped doing so.
because i have been acting happy just to finish up this last 'happy' day of my life.

i know very well after today i'll leave u for good. i know.
i know there's nothing i can do to keep u loving me like last time again.
like what u promised.

i'm not feeling ok. not at all.
not at all happy.

so stop wishing me.
fuck those wishes when the only one wish i want will never come true.

2010-07-05T16:10:00.003+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHH

I went through some letters during Secondary school time yesterday, LOL, very funny stuff in it.

We were so childish; using words like 'stead', 'hate', 'unfair', etc etc, and we jump into conclusions without thinking.

But everyone have changed a lot now; matured a lot. My dear girls: so sorry if I've ever offended u in anyway last time! Hahah, we were all so naive and living in our small little world, haha..

Do you girls still keep the letters? I feel like bringing all our letters to someone's house and read it together! HAHA, sure a lot of random stuff like 'wa lao, i don't like wanling lor, she so loud and noisy'.... 'i don't like jasmine!', 'aqillah so irritating..', ETC ETC!

Can I can I? Can I request for everyone to bring the letters you have and we read together? Haha, at JIENING's house or something???? CAN CAN? PLEASE REPLY ME!!! ON MY TAGBOARD!! MUCH LOVES :)

But cannot get angry with one another ok! Or even feel offended, cos it's like YEARS ago!!! I read bout the things last time it's so cute! The best thing is that, we still love each other so much now! :D

Come on! Find a day freeeeee laaaaaa :D :D :D

2010-06-23T19:56:00.004+08:00

Today is quite boring. Late. So cabbed to school. 8.45am and still no cab for me. Asked a stranger if she's willing to share cab with me. Lucky that she said yes. Reached school at 8.58am; luckily. Wore specs to school cos late already. Only brought lens.

Told myself if I'm not late for school I shall calm down.

Did I? Idk how to explain the feeling anyway. I don't wish to say it.

Went home straight after school. Use computer. Eyes very dry.

Pain and alone.

I miss you but there's nothing I can do anymore.

2010-06-22T02:09:00.001+08:00

Hopefully I'll have the mood to update the blog.

I'm giving up. Not because I don't love.
Because I love too much.

2 week term break - updates

2010-06-21T11:03:00.010+08:00

I hope I can remember what to update.

Till then.

I love Rahim too much!

2010-06-21T09:51:00.001+08:00

28th May 2010 FRIDAY - SESSION! But was having period so didn't. Watched them. Today got a few more people. But I can't practice, argh. Just move around a little.. Then went Saffron with Kevin, Jonas,

29th May 2010 Saturday - GetDown! Vol.3 at Fort Canning Park.
Didn't get thru auditions. Rahim lost to Fong at Top 16. Sians.

30th May 2010 Sunday - Idk what the hell did I do that day! Hais.
/Edited: RMB alr, I went Natasha Studio Jam 6. Red Line judged for HH battle, so yeh. Brendan Toh is annoyingly powerpack energy like free.

31st May 2010 Monday - Idk what the hell did I do that day! Hais.

1st June 2010 Tuesday - Session at TP. Jonas Brian Darling came later at near 8.40pm - 8.50pm or so. Met Luqman first, eat at Techno and waited for Keiths. Went TCC aircon area. Session dance a little. Darling and all then came. Went supper after that, at 201 Mc or Techno? Forgotten. Nabei.

2nd June 2010 Wednesday - Idk what the hell did I do that day! Hais.
/Edited: Today is the day I hate myself so much cos I didn't pass my Napfa. No. I didn't get gold! Fucked up. 2.4 fail big time cos idiot helpers for the event told us girls to pass is 17mins, when it's 19mins! So I stopped running once I see my watch it's 14mins and I'm still some distances away. KNNBCCB to the helpers. Really. I could have passed.

3rd June 2010 Thurday - Idk what the hell did I do that day! Hais.

4th June 2010 Friday - TP Session. After that eat supper with Fas, Nicole Shann, Jonas, Brian, Mev, Oon, Weeming, Carmen at Techno. Sang Darling birthday song =/

Quarreled till 4am, slept.

5th June 2010 Saturday - Sayang birthday!!! :) Will update on next post~

(To continue the relationship for the sake of continuing, it's redundant and useless.)

End the pain the earlier the better.

2010-05-27T19:47:00.002+08:00

Hello friends; like Eileen and Cheryl, etc etc..

If you're interested to support me/the dance event(Get Down! Volume 3) this Saturday, 29th May 2010, please visit the following website for information you need.

http://getdownvol3.weebly.com/

Brief information: $20 per person, purchase of ticket on the day itself. $20 includes dinner and drinks. Dress code; anything nice and you feel comfortable in. Timing 6pm - 11pm (advise to reach by 5pm latest to queue in case it'll be overwhelming)

Video of how to get to the place on the website given above. For more information, visit the website. =)

See ya there if I see ya!

With love!
Jaylene Hong Wanling

2010-05-24T10:15:00.009+08:00

19th May 2010 Wednesday - Went home after school and did nothing.

20th May 2010 Thurs - meeting supposedly to be at TP mac, but full and no plug, went up to Aaron's house (Kevin and Frankie). World is small that Aaron's friend is Frankie's friend. 11.30pm; Supper for prata! Was thinking of cabbing with Frankie but expensive leh! Midnight charge some more! SO Aaron, upon hearing so many many many discussions of ours, voiced out: "OK OK, you guys just eat, i'll drive you all back later" OPPS, guilty, haha but thanks Aaron! =) Syg stayed over. LALALALLALA (:

21st May 2010 Friday - Session with girls(Aty, Mev, Audrey, Fas) only. Eileen joined me for awhile! Haha. Well guys weren't here cos they went for GUYS NIGHT OUT, lol. Went drinking and they ended up drinking up to 889$(or something) worth of drinks, sibei SIAO!

Things to remember for the day:

- Fas lost the phone Jonas lent her, which is Jonas's brother's phone. She left it in TRANS CAB.

- We called Trans company, I called 5/6 times and no one answers, Mev came and called once, she got through the line. -.- KNS.

- Cab driver agree to come back to TP for Fas. We ended up running in and out from TCC to gate as cabs started coming in. (when all the cabs weren't trans; if u get what i'm saying)

- Paid the driver $5 but we think if the driver was sincere enough he won't want money from students, but if we were sincere enough we should give it to the driver as he helped us. So both not sincere la HUH!?! (Fasihah?)

After session Mac at 201 with Fas and Mev. Chat and chat until the both of them miss last bus still so calm, "chill, we're out to chill~ we can just cab home!" -.-, super relac ah both of them.

Home and called Syg awhile and sleep! He was light headed already, siao one drink so much, idiot!

IMPORTANT THING TO TAKE REMEMBER AND LAUGH AT:
FRANKIE WENT TO THE PUB, HE DIDN'T DRINK, AND WHAT'S MORE, HE ASK FOR MILK TO DRINK. OMG NICE. VERY FRESH. HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA.

22nd May 2010 Saturday - 11.45am cab to JOMS, meet Syg, talk a bit with students, Keiths house. Slack, had breakfast, cab to Midpoint with Kevin. Jonas and Mev came; indonesian cafe. Green tea, syg treatment. Proposal. Train to Keiths house at 7pm. Ate, slack, talk, dance/performed. Back up to his house with Kevin, talked and watch videos, bathes, open present. Cook noodles and very sedap cheese omelette. Ate and slept at 4am! GOOD THING THAT KEITHS SLEPT! Finally for him.

23rd May 2010 Sunday

- 8am, woke up and cab to Syg house.

- Syg have to go for deployment. I too sleepy to go home. Wanna sleep in his room. Moved the mattress, and RAT APPEAR! KNNBCCB I WANT TO CRY!

- Try chasing the rat out but can't! Suspecting that the rat has just given birth, HOPE NOT. Syg have to rush off at 10am. He did. And his nice mum offer me to sleep on her bed instead! Cos Syg's room obviously can't have me sleeping in there for the time being.

- I slept with Nora noisily reading story book beside me and asking me this and that, Argh! But due to over sleepiness I still got my sleep.

- Syg reached home at 11.55pm and I sleep beside me, but far apart duh. So yeh.

- Slept till only 1.45pm for Syg and I, and he have to go for dance class, so poorthing! :(

- Cab to Outram Park station, darling waited bus with me then he went for class (3.30pm to 5.30pm)

- I went home by bus 12(: Alone and slept well, woke up at one stop before my stop. Alighted and went home, wanted to use laptop but battery 0% and can't charge! So slept on the chair, dad went out and I watch tv~~~~~

- Chat with Syg but =( So I cabbed to Syg house at 11.15pm and talked and talked and sleep!

**** SIDE TRACK. I think on 19th May 2010 Syg and I argued and I cab down to his house at 11.15pm. Sorry Syg :( ****

Anyway, back on track.

24th May 2010 Monday - Went to school early in the morning, damn sian -.- Lunch at Techno without Rachel!

(suppose to session but end up watch ironman 2 @ downtown east @ 9.30pm. almost can't watch cos quarrel! counter suan me empty seats :( ironman 2 was damn good though! =) Movie end at 11.40pm. bus 17 home! =) reach home bathe, super lovelove and slept! =) )

25th May 2010 Tuesday - Woke up, Syg go work and I go school! (:

So difficult to wake darling up, but I love it! :D Love my darling! went to school and boring boring boring! Had lunch at Biz Park and saw Jonas. Then he left his file there; -.- Help him find. After school, went home, ate and Dad send me to Tampines Interchange, buy bus concession then send me to TP! Meet darling there, reached at same time =) Jonas still sleeping at home; -.- -.-.. Mev reached, my seniors reached, then Jonas cab down, lol. Start dancing. Fas reached. at 9.15pm, Battle Of The Sexes start. Haha, no winners stated by judge Rahim. I didn't do my best la, tired already, haha. BUT IT WAS SO FUN! =) Thanks people!

Went home at 10pm and slept at 1am! :( So late, can't imagine why! 10.30pm reach home, 10.50pm eat, 11.05pm rest awhile, 11.15pm Syg bathe and help me wash some garments and 11.45pm Syg done. 12.04am I bathed and wash 1 undies and 1 bra, done at 12.22am. Dig ear for darling, and slept! =) Fat boy fall asleep so fast, lovelove! =)

26th May 2010 Wednedsay - Wake up at 7.10am!! LATE ALREADY!!! Syg hurry bathe and I wake up too at 7.18am, pack the bed and make coffee for darling =) Mum sent me to school then send Syg to Paya Lebar MRT =)

Today in school, lunch at Mensa and had disgusting Vietnam food, then danced during PE time! But got to know that period is here; :( So didn't dance much le.. After PE faster go home and change pad.. FUCKING SIAN. How to train for getdown! like that?

ARGH. NVM. Went home bathe eat then have to buy pad and pay bills. Bathe already perspire again, sian. After going home Syg watch videos, until 10.40pm, we both bathe again and chat on phone till 11.40pm and slept! =) YAY. Good sleep(:

27th May 2010 Thursday
Can't train today when it's suppose to be all girls training. Argh. Gonna go home after school today, just had lunch at Mac, McSpicy McValue lunch. School will end at 5pm today instead of 5.30pm. Great.

Have a very strong feeling towards the lyrics of the song RAHIM WROTE.

Hi idiots, it's Rahim that wrote the song, that fucker merely have the knowledge to get the song done. Rahim trusted the wrong person. If you're smart enough you won't believe the song is by that fucker that took credit, BECAUSE:

First, he is a bastard that lies and take credit of others, it isn't only once.

Second, the lyrics is obviously speaking of us (Rahim and I), how we need to overcome the problems we're facing last time. Read my blog archive if you're so stupid, idiots. The song is suppose to be my birthday gift.

But it's ok, take the credit for now, for we all know, fucker, you won't have the talent and brain and most importantly, FEELING to write such a touching, loving song. Cos this is from the heart of Rahim, it's not something you can have with your lousy, cheap character and moral.

Thank you for writing the song for me darling, you can always do more of these love songs for me and us, cos our love remains.
Our life is beautiful. And I love you. (:

Thank you for all the sweet little things you did for me dear! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥/♥♥♥♥/2009

2010-05-19T20:37:00.002+08:00

all i wanna say now is, i really miss you. you're all over my heart.

but all i can do now is stay here alone, and get ready to overcome the double pain im gonna receive.

UPDATE WEEKLY

2010-05-19T11:33:00.008+08:00

Last Tuesday..... 11th May!

Sessioned at TP with Jeremy, Luqman, Christie, and suntec grp (without fAS..)

Aty got sabo to cypher first cos she wanted it, haha. But she did great! Cypher was still scary for me, can't hear the song at all.. Oh wells, I feel I always anticipate, but Rahim say I didn't. But this time he didn't see what I did cos his attention was on Frankie. OH wells, so no critics for this time :(!

Luqman led trainings, head isolate left, two step, four step; head isolate right, two step, four step; DAAAAMNNN~ THAT'S HARD. *Sings Let It Go by Keyshia Cole Ft. Lil Kim, Missy Eiliot*

But was fun~

Wed 12th May stayed home after school... so nothing much particularly.. Just that eyes started to become watery, blisters got bigger.. OH YA, PE day ma today, so ran 3 rounds only cos already giddy! Not enough sleep... Before running watched S and R play badminton.. The court is so ABCDEFG HOT!

Thurs 13th May 2010 : Went to sch early in the morning with eyes that gotten worst.. =( Super watery and red and swollen; DAMN UGLY FUCK.

Reach school and slept cos eyes very very uncomfortable, wanna rest it. Tan Leng San ask me to see doctor, decide for awhile, borrow money from rich Shervonne (that just bought a new Armani watch today[19May] for 285$), and went to see doctor at the kind but rich doctor at somewhere between Tampines Interchange and Tampines Library.

Cost $56.70.. OMG, BOOMZ.

Went home and rest, can't meet Aaron for discussion as eyes really can't take it. Thanks Darling, for pushing the discussion earlier and faster, by 9.15pm Syg bought cheap milk tea for me and came to sayang me at 9.50pm or so! =) Stayed over with me cos I VERY POORTHING :(

14th May Friday: TPDE CAMP. Syg took leave cos it's Nora's 6th birthday... Went Syg's house early in the morning(cabbed to Hougang mall first to get donuts) at 10am.. Reach his house at near 12pm, rested, ate, bought small shampoos, etc for camp, and went to Nora kindergarten to have a mini celebration with her small mates. =)

Went back Syg's house, he slept awhile, and at 4.20pm or so we went to TP tgt. Had chicken spaghetti at Biz Park and meet Jowell there too, she came after we finished eating and we went SAA tgt to gather and wait for Camp to start! Excited (:

Rahim dear went to meet Brian to session but Fas was holding to the wires and she wasn't free yet so they waited and discussed. Then session.

POSEIDON!!!! LOVE. HAHA, the people all so fun! (:
PLANPLAN won, but i wasn't there.

I went off at 10plus and meet Darling and Brian cos I know my eyes can't take it anymore; what's more the supper is gonna be biscuit -.-... I'm already having gastric and my eyes are swollen cos it's heaty.. For sure I can't have biscuit and I need to eat! And everyone is telling me my eyes are getting worst, redder, so I went home lor. Met Kevin, Jonas, Mev, WM, Oon; went supper at Teh Tarik without WM&Oon.

Went home after supper, bathe and SLEPT IN SLEEPING BAG. HAHAHAHA, must make use of it what! My darling buy for me one leh =) THANK U DEAR! So sweet.......!

15th May 2010 Saturday: Syg got class at TPY in the morning(11-1pm), my eyes were so bad I can't wake up, with headache some more. WEIRD HEADACHE! Suspecting I have brain tumor; hais, see how, check up soon if it persists. So can't go back to camp anymore =(

So yeh, suppose to only sleep an hour more and find Syg at TPY, but headache was killing me, I slept all the way till Darling came back to my side, watching me sleep will I wake up (:

It was 2.45pm or so already.. Woke up, bathed and went to Mr Prata to eat (Syg had fried rice and I had 2 prata with FISH CURRY! SEDAP), then to TM to get Nora's present wrapped, and bought her drawing blocks too, she loves to draw! (:

7pm went home and had dinner with family. Few people today, as teenagers grows older... everyone starts to have own plans.. Hmmm, feel so bad. Idk what to say bout it. Hope everyone would see this dinner as something more important? Oh wells.

Slept at night after watching Sherlock Holmes on Laptop! OMG NICE SHOW LEH! haha, I know I'm kinda slow.. But yeh, NICE! (: Smart show I should say.
Slept in sleeping bag again(addicted) :D :D

Sunday 16th May wake up bout 11/12pm I think, went Syg's house, Syg changed and he went for extra class at Outram Park MRT. Get paid(: Awesome.

I stayed at Syg house. Went for some weird malay ceremory at opposite block with Nora and their Mum. AWKWARD MAX. Went back at 3pm and paint with Nora till 5pm and we all got ready to go AMK Hub. His parents, Nora and I went off bus, took 261, then walked around in NTUC for Nora's shoe, as her bro wanna buy for her..

6plus and the brothers reach. 6.35pm and Rahim reached! YAY! I was already hungry, so we got the sausages at $4 for 11 pieces. YAY! =)

We rushed to Pizza hut (IN RAIN!) first in case there's long queue, but no queue -.- Nvm, settled down and waited for the rest, ordered food and eat!

Food: 2 new pizza, one hawaiian, berrie don't know what drink, i got a orlean delight baked rice, 20pcs drumlets, and desert shared warm chocolate cake with ice cream with Syg, and a english breakfast tea for myself to help digestion, haha. too much food!

After eating, walked around with his family then went home by 25.. Syg sent me home then went home afterwards at 11pm. (Slept in sleeping bag! HEEHEE WEEE)

MONDAY! 17th May 2010: School, session at RP at 7pm, went with Keiths. Meet Darling at Woodlands at 6.30pm (: Walked to RP. Ate Subway Cold Cut Trio.

Dance(: Mini battle - Rahim&I VS Arjuna&Jasmine - SCARY, NERVOUS, REALLY SCARY. Syg say I improved from last week, oh wells, hopefully.

Have fun though(: That's the whole point! Went home at 10plus as Jeremy got homework to do, but end up taking 11.20pm 168 cos some went to buy Mac and took some time, Mac service damn slow!

So yeh, reached my home at 12.30am, bathed and slept. OVERSLEPT. TOTALLYYYYY!

TUESDAY 18th May 2010
10am; awaken by Gary's call. OMG.
Hurriedly bathe and left house. Luckily I'm only LATE, not ABSENT. Only if I reach school after 12pm then I'm absent. BUT STILL!!!!! - I can't be late for more than 3 times and it's already my second time now :( how to survive the next 4-5 months without being late? HAIS.

Took 59 tgt, I alighted at Safra and went to school by 15, Syg went home.

In the evening, meet Syg at Tampines mall. I went home after school to find formal pants for Syg at 201, but there isn't any shop that sells that. So Darling had to go to Tampines Mall himself to get it at Isetan, $33. I went home, had my dinner and met him at TM at 7.15pm..

Went to TP straight by 69 to session with suntec group. See them sitting there at level 1, unable to dance cos security are chasing people away due to Graduation.

-.- WHY? GRADUATION THEN CANNOT DANCE AH? STUPID REASON.
What's more the ceremony is already over, they don't wanna leave, their problem la, we play music and dance! .......... ARGH. Even Keiths lie on the floor also wanna kpkb. NVM, too lazy to argue, we'll lose out anyway. Went to aircon place to dance instead. 8.50pm. Went to level 1.

Train a little more and mini battle -.-

Winners in yellow:

Me and Audrey VS Keiths and Mev.
Fas and Jannson VS Jonas and Aty and ?????
Fas and Jannson VS Kevin and mini Kevin(?)

Finals: Fas and Jannson VS Keiths and Mev

Haha, good experience la, Syg say I improved again! YAY! :D Thank u thank u! :D
Happy enough to improve.. slowly lor.. but really, my second song was Booty Music VS Keiths. I know the song very well, but I can't hear anything when I went forwards. Really really scary! First song was Syg's ring tone; some Snoop Dogg song. Can't hear it too. Totally lost! Audrey and Mev got the song 'Universal Mind Control' - DIFFICULT. HAHA.

So ya, session ended at 10plus, changed and went Saffron to Dabao food to my house with Jonas and Kevin and the mens have the talk. Haha, with Brian arriving soon after.

Discussed till 1.50am, they went home, Syg stayed over, he slept straight away(: So cute, packed his stuff for him then slept at 3am.. Woke him up at 5.20am, THANKS KEVIN and DAD for the wake up call. Haha, Rahim and I were soooo afraid we overslept again that we had so many people helping us, haha.. (Slept in sleeping bag again! :D)

Ok so Darling went to work, cabbed :( waste money! but late already.. and I, ALMOST LATE, with Rachel, ahah sorry Rachel for having to wait for me.

Ok well, so I'm in lab since 8.58am, doing stupid things like Bejeweled, Pet Society, Blogging, and checking this girl out: HERE.

Yes you may hate her, but please don't. Everyone lives life differently. Happy for her, although her life is not perfect; who's is??

Ok 3pm now, time for PE session. BYE. IF I GOT TIME I'LL UPLOAD PHOTO.

IF.

p/s: so i've been sleeping in sleeping bag ever since the day i have in, lol

p/s p/s: today's pe session was a slack :D

First Cypher @ RP + weekly update

2010-05-11T11:08:00.006+08:00

AWESOME AGAIN. My first time ever joining in a cypher. DAMN SCARY. NOW I UNDERSTAND. WALAO.

I can't hear the music, I can't see. I can't think. It's nervous!

But I believe if i have more tries, I'll be able to dance freely one day!

Love this feeling.

Love having support with all the people, especially darling(:

Anyway girlfriends ah, i miss you all! I might be joining a competition.. Are you all gonna support me? :/

Tonight sessioning with Suntec Grp (I'm not in it), Audrey maybe, and Jer..

Not much updates. 8th May 2010 @2.30pm to 3.30pm went to Dance On Us for dance class cos TPY fully booked. Darling bought a Billabong bag, $100 @ Billabong Heeren. Talked to Ben, with Brian, talked to T-shirt guy @ Cineileisure before that. Was raining cats and dogs that day. Drank Honeydew Sago @ Far East.

Everyday in school is a boring day. Oh ya, 7th Jam n Hop 2010 in school. Suppose to session. Surprise fetch Syg at his station (told him will meet him at his house). Almost missed the bus, ran for the bus as I saw him boarding already. Lucky! =)

Went his house, rest, ate and went to TP. Fas, Jonas all at Koi Pong area for J&H. Danced like free. Jody and Youwen came too. We forgotten they're coming. OPPS. After J&H, 10pm; went air con area session till 11pm with Jody, YouWen, Keiths and Kevin, with stupid Keiths scary us with his scream, NABEI.

Supper at Techno and went Brian house for meeting. TILL fucking 5am nabei.

Got ghost at Brian house use Brian laptop talk to Jonas.

5am went Mr. Prata to breakfast and home. 6.45am or so. Sleep like a pig straight off.

6th May met Aaron at Mc near TP for discussion. With Cheryl too. Not Cheryl TY. Cheryl as in Aaron's gf. =)

4th May talk with Aunties was successful.

Oh forgot bout 9th May; Mothers' day! Ate at home. Lol. Cake was sucky (dad bought it). Food was alright. Satay was dope but end up with ants 2hours later.

Busy week last week. Hope this week will be as progressive too!

Really loving this life. Somewhat enough sleep with chiong life. Just that seriously, MP sucks. Why am I still in this lab, just bejeweled-ing and blogging?

Grrr, whatever. Meeting Jowell at 145pm later to submit camp form.

Girlfriends, no one congrats me for getting in audition and I AM VERY SAD. :(

Freshies for TPDE camp this Saturday; can't wait.

29th May Get Down! vol.3 - Girlfriends! coming????????????????????????????

Oh wells.

I AM A TOTAL HAPPY GIRL(:

2010-05-04T13:45:00.006+08:00

Hi Earthlings :D

Last night I went to RP to session with RSF and some dancers, it was totally cool and fun! Very interesting and hyper active, I LOVE IT, seriously.

It's quite a big step for me to take as I really have little experience in dance. Less than 1 year of lessons from Rahim.. plus I was lazy and didn't train. But I'm definitely gonna buck up on training (;

Warm up..... 2 rounds of techniques... cypher................. pictures.. home.

Anyway really thank Cheong Xin Ying for the invitation. Gave me a lot of exposure. (: And thanks Jeremy, Luqman, Jacky, Audrey that encouraged me!

Also Rahim! I know you...... kinda... purposely do techniques that you taught me before (?!), it really calm me down a lot. :D LOVE YOU FAT BOY.

Ok so then bus 168 home with Jer, Luqman and PY, and took 291 home. Bathed and slept! :) Woke up early at 6.40am to bathe and go to school. Gonna be late but luckily mum sent us! Reached early, 8.15am! So had nicenice breakfast with darling; Siew mai, burger and black pepper chicken pau + Teh Peng.

I went back to lab at 9am and Syg went to meet Jonas!

LUNCH with them at Techno, 1230 - 1.30pm -.- pathetic break time. BUT I AM SO HAPPY. HEEEEE LALALALLA before break Syg called me.. he knew something but he doesn't wanna tell me.. Made me worried and scared! Then he told me *ahem ahem*...............................................................................................................................................................................................................................................; continue reading for more info.

Told Jowell the news and she gave me a ....... tone. So irritating. I was so happy for her too! We both... lalala, didn't really expect this at all. And I am really happy now!

After lunch lo! Back in lab now! Gonna meet Syg at Orchard later straight after this stupid office hours.

Ok yup, BYE! Thanks for reading!

we (Jowell and I)....

got...

through....

TPDE HipHop Audition(me), Modern Audition(her)!

- AWESOME MAX -

Updates!! - School days, IP MAN 2, Random!

2010-05-03T09:03:00.008+08:00

Yes, a ultimately squashed bird.

OK HI!

I haven't been updating blog, hais, hopefully in years to come I won't start cursing myself when I can't think what did I do on 29th April 2010, or something! :(

Anyway, so here are some updates. In school, 29th April and 30th April.
FRIDAY Met up with with B & J for meeting. Didn't dance. Went home at 10plus to watch Iron man I. :D Nice, nice. Wash undies together before that. Slept tgt! :)

Watched IP MAN 2 with Darling on Saturday(1st may)! OMG AWESOME LA THE SHOW IS SUPERB! Too good! Really, inspiring, touching and exciting! Love what IP MAN said when he won the last fight, haha. Watched at Cathay AMK Hub @ 4.50pm!

Before watching was dance class at TPY. Then went dear's house to eat, rest, wash up.

After movie was 6.40pm or so. Bus 88 to TPY lorong 8 there and walked 20mins to JJ house for his 21st birthday party! Hope he enjoyed it, and like the present! (:

Wish you all the best, Jia Jun.

I am happy to see them! (Syafiq and Jiajun).. Of course my girls la, C, J and E.

No pictures were taken though, only some pictures with Cheryl! (Hopefully she uploaded)

So yeh, cabbed to Pasir Ris with C and J as they are going for JN's cousin bday partae. Bought an Evian at the cheers with them and we left by bus 12 :D

Went home and SLEPT! :)

SUNDAY was spent waking up at 12pm then had brunch then Syg do proposal while I slack around, made cheese biscuit butter bread with orange juice for Syg as tea @ 3.30pm. Then do a bit more of proposal and went to meet Frankie at East Point.................................... Accidentally ******** from popular unknowingly. =/ Opps.

BOUGHT A NEW EAR PHONE! Audio Techinica - DIP! NICE(:
35$ (Challenger member), bright yellow and cool!

OK PICTURES:

DEAD BIRD!

AWESOMELY NERD. MUAHAHA

BOY BAND! : R.B.J
;)

Brian's irritating watch.

IP MAN 2 at AMK hub!

Heeeeeeee (:

Oh ya I went for TPDE audition on 24th April 2010 at 2pm, with Jowell. Fas choreo to Rude Boy by Rihanna..

Rahim came to support :) Thank you!

Will update results. :D Hope can get in!

Ok ya. BYE.

1st Gelare with Darling! 020

2010-04-29T09:01:00.012+08:00

Met at Pasir Ris E Hub bus stop @ 7pm! Then walked to Gelare and have the discounted Waffle Ice Cream! 2 scoops for $9.90 :D

Yummy~ Ordered Wild Strawberry and Coffee (I think) with Maple Syrup.

He was saying "I don't know what to order leh.. If I order the caramel the chocolate will look at me like this............" (see below)
Lol.

Then he smiles to himself.

SPOT THE SIMILARITY!

Hahahahahahha.....

Sorry forgot to take a picture of the complete waffle

*Munch munch*

Ook finished the Ice cream and walked around E Hub and Downtown East... Bout 8plus then went home by bus 21 then 38 at near Jonas house!

Went home! Then had dinner then had a good fruitful talk! Let's hope everything will be alright by now, always.. :)

Love my Rahim fat boy! =)

Thank you Sayang, really. =)

P/s: Thanks Cheryl and Keiths(:

2010-04-26T16:58:00.002+08:00

I love the way you carass me! Love my darling always =)

Bowling Day - 16th April 2010 I think.

2010-04-26T16:09:00.004+08:00

The score! Rahim won like duh. It was my first time in my whole life to bowl! Zoom in and check it out, I striked ok. I is got talent. Muaha :D

IMAGES UPLOAD! LIKE FINALLY! - 7 April 2010

2010-04-26T09:35:00.035+08:00

7 April 2010 - To Science Centre Singapore! (:

1st year anniversary =)

Waited for 291 to take 168..

But end up 168 just went away! So we hurriedly took cab and chase! Haha, so lame. Alighted at before Ikea and board the bus :D

On 168

Science Centre some Barber thingy.

Old me.

Adult me.

Young me! So pretty, lol.

Baby me! LOL

Baby Rahim, HAHAHA

Teenage Rahim

Adult Rahim.

Old Rahim

LOL LOL Please don't become like this Sayang..

Hahaha, si bei GAY, maybe Jonas or Keiths will like it..

Epic.

Nice pose!

Bused 19? to Marina Square! :D

[One Big Pearl Surrounded by 4 Small Pearls -.-]

At P*risssssss [A buffet place we went that cost us 45$ EACH and the food tasted like shit thus I am NOT saying the full restaurant's name but you might know what I am referring to, good for you]

[NOT NICE TO EAT - In Chinese Characters]

[REALLY NOT NICE TO EAT - In Chinese Characters; haha, write 'NOT NICE' not enough, must emphasize - REALLY NOT NICE.]

Haha, Epic for me to laugh at :D So happae!

Walking to Esplanade!

Ok time's up. Bus home by bus 12 I think. :) LOVE U RAHIM!

And on bus, we nothing to do so we 'guessed' what face the other party is making and try and do the same as face as each other. LAME but FUN. And our epic failed.

-End Of Day 1 Adventures-
Upload Day 2 soon! :/

Love my darling Rahim! (:

To TPDE and dancers that know about this.

2010-04-23T20:21:00.006+08:00

Hi everyone,

I don't even know how to start this but, here goes.

I am here apologising for comparing SG dancers with Americans 2 years ago, after going for TPDE modern dance audition. The reason why I stated that is, there was one particular girl that had very bad attitude towards me that day. She wanted me to go out of the sports stadium before I wear my shoe but used a arrogant attitude towards me. There are also a few TPDE dancers just shoot me like 'why are u even here look' and that irritated me so I passed that comparison on my blog. As a year 1 freshmen that don't know anything about dance, I might have been quite ignorant, that I am sorry.

So due to that reason, I scolded TPDE as a whole cos I did not know who she was, I'm sorry for that. (I really did mention that I am not referring to the whole TPDE at the last part of my old blog, posted on 1st May. I know I did not state it clearly. Sorry about that.) I did not mean in anyway to insult anyone in TPDE.

So the main point is, after knowing Rahim, the man who I already respected after that incident, I got to know more about TPDE dancers like, Nicole, Ah lee, Jean, Keiths, Jonas, Brian, KLock, Danny, Hazrul, Joycelyn etc.. And I find some of them very interesting and nice people. I really didn't mean to make anyone felt stereotyped.

From the blog argument onwards, I missed out TPDE Dreams concert by Rahim, I missed the chance to the HipHop audition that year. The arguement we had was quite a great impact that made me realise one small mistake I did have made me lose out quite a lot.

I always did not dare to look at any TPDE dancers since then, and everytime when I train with Rahim at TCC with other dancers I can feel the awkwardness between. I went for GEMS 5 and this time the awkwardness was really strong and gave me this urge to have this post. I don't know what the dancers think now but I feel I have to have an apology to everyone of you. And to every dancers in SG that knew about this incident. I am sorry.

And today, I've learnt that not to speak too harshly, but to clarify instead. Thanks to the incident. I get to know Rahim love, and now get to know a lot more dope SG dancers.

I am glad I am now friends with a number of TPDE dancers. =)

I sincerely hope that those that I have not spoken to directly (e.g Meiqi, Foong, Pang yang, Raazmy) or anyone that has been hurt by what I said to accept my apology for being ignorant and harsh on my words 2 years back.

Also to Pang Yang, sorry for scolding you on my blog and make things open to others.

And I thank you all for making me learn too. Hopefully the next time I see any TPDE dancers around, I no longer have to hide and feel afraid.

I wish TPDE all the best and grow stronger in dance together. Most importantly, have fun and stay happy. Do not let any critics bring you down cos dancing is a happy thing.

Good luck!

PEACE and LOVE,
Jaylene Hong Wanling
http://rahimveryhandsome.blogspot.com

2010-04-22T19:12:00.001+08:00

My last week of holiday spent:

12 April 2010 MONDAY - Shop with Darl at Heeren to buy a shirt. Saw Ben, Tyron, Jacky with Audrey, chatted and went off at around 9.15pm. Ate mac and bus home from Cinei to Far East (518).

13 April 2010 TUESDAY - Session at TP with Jonas Fas Aty, etc, Fas' choreo, difficulty level x5.. *Butterfly* Syg stayed over(:

14 April 2o10 WEDNESDAY - Woke up early and Syg went to work. Then I forgotten, fill me in.

15 April 2o10 THURSDAY - Forgotten too, fill me in PLEASE. But if I'm not wrong we argued at night, and you didn't went home at night. Plan was to stay over already.. Then at in the morning we argued and you went to work (FRIDAY ALR)

16 April 2010 FRIDAY - Then you went to work. So you very sad and everything, Syg took half day off and came to apologise to me at 3.40pm, I woke in up shock by the clothes hanging above me, looking like a smiling Ronald Mcdonald face, then turn to see my darling squating and staring at me. Bought me foods that I said I wanted... (: Love..

Jasmine's birthday(: Celebrating on Sat. Session at TP at night. Rahim's fucking Chimology choreo.. SUPPERED.

Stayed over and........... next day.

17 April 2010 SATURDAY - went to AMK tgt for breakfast, then Syg go off to TPY for his class. Then the girls and I went zoo. Bad day for me cos the sun very extremely scorching and I was itching like crazy, hais. But I really miss the girls and had fun with them:)

Thanks Denise for the shirt.

And Darling went to Keiths' house after his class at 1pm and had Rochor Beancurd first then he watch video at K's house. So much for gayness. Then they went RP to meet Jonas and sessioned a little then Jonas and Syg went to Syg house to grab some clothes, etc, and went to Tampines mart for business talk and wait for me.

As for me, I left the girls at 5pm and went for AMK. To meet Jowell and we cab to East Coast to have Grandpa birthday family dinner at International Seafood Restaurant, with very dope crab and shark fin, etc etc.. Was great food(:

Dinner last till 9.50pm ++ then we went to Xiao gu house to have the cake(Tiramisu). Till bout 11pm took Da gu's car home with grandparents and Dad sent Jowell home with bros. Da bao 2 slice of cakes for Darling... (: (which until today i forgot to give it to him; check out mhs.bs.com)

I reached home, peed and walk to Tampines Mart to meet only Jonas and Darling. Brian super late.

Talk talk talk, improvise, and left Mc at 2am? Yeh, around there.

Went home and no need to wash undies, so bathed talked lovelove and slept. About 5am I think.

18 April 2010 SUNDAY - woke up at about 1.15pm, bathed, ate one chicken pie each, Syg bathed, I bathed, and went to Cineleisure for SDD Vol.1 at bout 3pm+. Took 65 from Safra. Reached at 4.45pm.. We went to eat Sweet and Sour Chicken with rice first at Cine foodcourt. Saw dancers, DUH. After eating walk around first cos it's only 5.10pm. Bought Sour cream and Onion Pringles and Heaven&Earth green tea and walk back and queued. Robin came and Syg chat with ppl he know.

Waited till 7pm and competitors start to come in and pictures taken. 7.30pm queue start moving in and show starts.

Winner - JATB
1st runner up - The Basic Fives
2nd runner up - Some MLYSIA team

Frankly, JATB win, it's a happy thing for them (: But I still hope the real Hiphop side will start winning. But still, we don't know what the competition is really looking for. So I feel happy for the winners..

Except for the 3rd. Cos, oh wells, just feel there are better teams. Sorry no offence.

After show was 10pm+. Jonas wait for us cos Rahim was finding Domique to take picture with. He did. Then walk to Heeren to take bus to take 12 from SMU there. Yup.. Fas suppose to join us but she's late alr! :(

So we took 12 and had great talks. Jonas said 'Fas should have taken this bus....' meaning to hear more things from Rahim.. Great knowledge and true story from his own mouth.

So we bathe and slept once we reached home. About 12plus already. We slept at near 3am.. After some lovelovelove..

19th April 2010 MONDAY - Morning at 6.30am I woke Darl up and he move on to bathing and went off after kissing him. I just couldn't get up and he wants me to rest more too. So I just slept till 7.30am and I woke up and went to school. First day of school, on time..

Lunch @ Techno, got to know that same class at F805 girls still(:

End at 5.30pm and Darl says Jacky is in TP so he might as well meet him. So we did. I went to One stop service centre first but it's close and walked to Bus stop at TP to find Liani there, then Jonas came too. Told Jonas Rahim coming later then we was like OH IS IT OK. And told me bout his hits. Ha, then bus 8 came so I went up, then change to 55. Syg fetched me from his house bus stop. He got his clothes, changed, we had some rice with chicken ginger soup, xiao bai chai and left to TP.

Reach bout 9.15pm at TCC. Chatted and left at 10.40pm. Went Ang Keong to have supper (dry beef hor fun and cheng teng) with Jacky, Audrey and Jonas. Weeming left with J Oon.

Bus 291 home with Jonas, talk bout some stuff I forgotten. Then alighted 291 at 291 busstop and walked home. Stayed over. Hurriedly slept as we're both super sleepy.

20th April 2010 TUESDAY - Morning woke up and again after waking hubby up he go bathe and I slept but this time he left hurriedly cos got inspection. Still, he kissed me before he go. I woke up soon at 7.30am and went bathe and go school.

LATE, cabbed to school. So wasn't late.

BLABLABLA IN SCH, home to eat dinner then went Session at TCC.
Just training today, learnt a technique from Rahim, and today concentrated on hitting on beat. Funny stuff.

Then cypher for 30mins++ and went off for home. Bus with Brian only and didn't supper cos too late, we need to sleep.

Reach my home and not suppose to stay over. But still did cos I childish want husband.

Slept by 12am.

21st April 2010 WEDNESDAY - Morning I woke Syg up again and this time he's sucha good boy, didn't buffer on bed! (: Then he bathed, but this time staying a little longer will 7.30am with me, watch me sleep, pat me sleep from 7am to 7.30am.. Then he left, and I woke up at 7.35am, but somehow slept while sitting up till 7.48am. SHIT.

Late, but still took my own sweet time, bathe wash hair dry hair, etc, eat ham with bread x2 (garlic chili and ketchup) then went to school, already taken money from Dad to cab but stupidly took 518 -.- And late. -.- x2

So yup. In class till 3pm and left with Shervonne and Sandy and supervisor to Nepes at AMK. Meeting and I keep yawning. 3.30pm to 5.15pm.

Ended and I walked to YCK Syg's work place. And waited for him. Drag my feet for every step cos its very near and he's only ending at 6pm. He ended. We bused 45 to his house, he put his stuff, and sent me home. On bus 55 he made me angry (due to some he forgot don't know what like some girl stuff) and still didn't do anything to coax me. He still used his attitude and temper.

On bus 65 then to bus 28, still nothing from him.

I already know what to do.

Walked home, I tried to be ok and dig darl's ear (: Then I tried to talk nicely but ended up to nothing good.

He threw my right hand away and smacked the rolling under table drawer of mine. He shocked himself by that and hurriedly apologise. I rejected.

Tears, cries. I know what to do. I told him to get home. About 9.40pm, he went off. Tried to kiss me but I don't want to.

Hurt pain disappointment. Nothing I can do.

And now, only I know my secrets.

And you Rahim.

2010-04-21T21:54:00.003+08:00

He is dead.

But I'll always love him.

I'm quite sure this time.

//Edited 10.17pm
I really love you.
I'm already missing you like crazy.

//Edited 11.03pm
I wanna hear your voice;
I wanna touch your face;
I wanna feel your skin;
I wanna smell your neck;
I wanna be in your arms;
SO MUCH.

I am going to sleep already.

*Left Cheek, Right Cheek, Forehead, Sweet Lips*

2010-04-17T04:24:00.002+08:00

FUCK I JUST RMB I FORGOT TO LOG OUT FROM THE TP'S PC.

PLEASE ANY KIND SOUL HELP ME LOG OUT CAN?????

BEG U PLS THANKS.

Rahim's choreo fking difficult!!

2010-04-16T21:27:00.002+08:00

ARGH!!!! So currently at TP level 1 with ATY FAS JONAS BRIAN WEEEMING AND BRIAN'S FRIEND. Learning Rahim's so called 'not prepared' choreo. Nabei...

No one can catch fully lor, fucked up!

RAHIM u watch out!! Tonight I DON'T TALK TO YOU!!!!!!!

OK bye, need to video for them soon.

2010-04-12T14:25:00.000+08:00

Ok short update for the week.

Monday; Stayed home

Tuesday; Session at TP, then discussion with Brian and Jonas

Wednesday; Anniversary celebration at Science Centre and Pariss, with argument till almost break up at midnight.

Thursday; Woke up late at around 4pm as we slept late, so movie and bowling plans cancelled, just slacked at home then Sayang went home in the morning.

Friday; FUYO-Interschool 2010, warm up party.. Sayang went to work, then asked for a half day off cos he's feeling tired. Went home to sleep then I meet Syg at Dhoby Ghaut, I bad tempered and used a bad tone when Rahim went to the wrong bus stop to wait for me. I don't even know why I so fucked up. Anyway, sorry dear. :)

7 to smoke. Rahim judged for the HipHop category with Melissa.

Saturday; After dance from 11am to 1pm (Presentees: Angele, MeiTing, Allison), Keiths called and ask if we're going R16, we say ok. Darling and I went bowling first at JOMS basement! It was fun though I look retarded and the counter guy(since years ago), service sucked. But nvm, he only need to help us press the machine and give us the shoes, other than that, SHUT UP YOU FUCKER AND READ YOUR NEWSPAPER, THANKS.

After one game, my arm is like aching a little, so we decided to stop and go Keiths' house to meet Jonas and Keiths. MUAHA, I am a evil friend Keiths have cos I steal their food and I disturb his lunch! Then after eating some superb cheese omelette, nuggets and instant noodles, we sat on sofa, suppose to just rest awhile, which Jonas, Rahim fell asleep on a sofa, and me too, fall asleep soon after. Haha, Keiths dad suddenly came and ask if we want water, when I just woke up to adjust myself! So super welcoming, coolness; but funny.

Rahim say I sleep until mouth open. KNS.

Then so we woke up at 5pm, and took our time and eat some beancurd, Rochor Beancurd, egg tart, soya bean mix grass jelly (Michael Jackson), and took 145 to Cityhall, walked to Padang for the event, R16.

Seriously, happy that Singapore's dance scene is growing! Lim Kah Sing won he Popping category and Ian Poh Chunky won the Locking category, everyone is improving! Happy happy.

And real happy to see that most lockers have got their FUNK back; especially Chunky. Real fun! (:

Hope the Hiphop scene will also grow. BUT seriously, it's more difficult to grow because there are a lot of people that don't know anything about Hiphop and call themselves Hiphop dancer. Yes originated from BBoy, but Hiphop dance is another thing!

It's about the flavour and the groove while freestyling, seriously, it's not about LINES.

Aiya whatever la, Popping and Locking scene is really growing, hope those potential Hiphop dancers please keep the real thing going. THANKS.

And so R16 ended at 10plus, Jonas and Darling and I went Victoria to eat fish soup, with a cockroach disturbing my meal, NABEI.

Then we bus 12 home together, and Darling and I watched videos, bathed, lovelove hughug kisskiss and slept at 5am or so! Damn late, :( Sayang suppose to go home.. But we woke up at 5pm. Sorry.. So Sayang bathed and drank coffee, rest awhile, and he went home.

With love. Will upload pictures soon, and edit the post. Promise myself!

OMG FACTS

2010-04-09T05:50:00.002+08:00

Women speak about 7000 words a day. The average man averages just over 2000.

When a person is tickled, the response is actually a form of panic, as the brain interprets the tickling sensation as produced by spiders or other creepy crawlies on your skin - the uncontrollable laughter is a response to panic.

A clock at the palace of King Louis XIV stopped at 7:45am, the time of his death.
The clock has not been fixed since that day, and to this day still reads a quarter to eight. When he was a child, When Louis XVI of France was a child, an astrologer warned him to be always on his guard on the twenty-first day of every month. His date of death is January 21st, 1793. Now that's scary.

If you look at the sun RIGHT NOW, you are technically looking back in time. It takes eight minutes for light from the sun to reach Earth.
Therefore, the image of the sun in the sky outside your window at this moment is actually what the sun looked like about eight minutes ago.

When you kiss someone for a minute, you both burn about 2.6 calories.
According to that math, it would take about an hour of kissing to burn 156 calories. A person who runs for 45 at a 10mph pace burns 538 calories. Which one would you rather do?

Your earlobes line up with your nipples.

And tell me folks, that you did not just think if your earlobes really line up with your nipples.

Not the same anymore

2010-04-09T04:27:00.003+08:00

I just want to be loved by you again..

R, can I?

Will you please be the same again?

2010-04-06T01:56:00.002+08:00

Maybe I should start blogging more often, so as to keep memories..

Can't even remember what I did last week.

When can I have more freedom?

1 more day to 1st year anniversary!

2010-04-05T22:04:00.001+08:00

I love Rahim Bin Abdul Rahman.

2010-03-30T18:43:00.001+08:00

I'll try to be alright.. Sorry everyone.

2010-03-30T16:48:00.002+08:00

What can I do?

I wish I have some idea..

When will you learn?

When will you be yourself again?

When will you stop being ego and listen?

When will you be the sweet loving guy again?

Yes, I am just being stubborn.. Let me be. Decision decided. I don't even wanna break the news.

2010-03-29T17:56:00.000+08:00

Walking like a baby with pampers. (:

I miss you.

2010-03-25T01:51:00.000+08:00

When can I get the one I love to understand me as well.

2010-03-24T19:07:00.005+08:00

FLOOR THE LOVE 2010

RED LINE VS Up2U - [Winner Red Line]

RED LINE VS Neuron - [Winner Neuron]

Rahim darling rocks my socks always. WEEEEE, FEEL, GROOVE, FLAVOUR.

Hit the beats, a lot can do it. But doing it with feel, it's a different thing.

2010-03-23T15:36:00.004+08:00

Do a little more each day than you think you possibly can..

Sayang, especially for you dear.. Persevere and work harder than you think you can. Yes I've only known you for 1 year, but I believe I know you and understand you more than others do. Other than your parents.. I know you're a very strong and independent person. I'm sure you can k? Don't be lazy hor! Or don't be too obsessed by me. Lalala :) Train harder k. Do more than you think you can. If you're aiming to train 2 techinques, train 3 instead. If you're aiming to do 3 eights choreo, do 4 instead. Work hard k darling, you promised dear.. Our dream house! :) I love you..

GIRLFRIENDS!
Aqillah - Very very very long never see you lehhhhhh!!!!! Wa lao.. How are you? Anyway, do a little more each day than you think you possibly can. I think you always do eh? Haha, see ya soon la. Everytime never come one you!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Cheryl - Don't lazy hor at work. Haha.

Denise, Evelyn, Jasmine, Jiening, HELLO. HAHA, meet again soon leh, don't Jasmine birthday then can meet lehhhhhh..

Jocelyn - I haven't see your hair. Haha, by the time I meet you I think your hair grow back already. Lol.

F805 girls!
I'll be seeing Shervonne this Thursday.. Thought you all say what KBox session? When sia. Haha, EILEEN! RACHEL! LIANI! WEEQI!

Plan leh plan lehhhhh..

BYEBYE! Basic Instinct, everyone, dancers especially I think, remember, 'DO A LITTLE MORE THAN YOU THINK YOU POSSIBLY CAN'.....

Train a little more than you think you can.

2010-03-22T15:41:00.002+08:00

15th March 2010 (MON) -- Fetch Sayang from work and went Sayang house. Bought Indian rojak for his family (: Then Sayang sent me home then he went home.

16th March 2010 -- Darling stayed at home. (:

17th March 2010 -- Came and watch show, I think.. (: Then cab home, is it?

18th March 2010 -- Session at TCC with Jody and Youwen. Collected Samsung phone before that at Century Square, was suppose to meet at Cityhall but blur me forgotten to bring Syg's shoe bag, and the speakers for session. Went back home from Simei to take it! :( Session then went my house, then... forgotten.

19th March 2010 -- I forgot again. What did I do? Hmmmmmmm.. I think went Syg's house? Hais, I am so forgetful nowadays.. OH! Taiwan Auntie came, so my family went to a steamboat place at Geylang to dine.. Then mum sent me to Eunos to fetch husband, then we went TP to pass his friend some knives. Mum send us to Mart Mac as we were hungry! Had Fish Fillet meal and a additional Mc Chicken Burger. Saw Brian. Chatted awhile then went home. Sayang stayed over. (: We watched Ka Ho Yuet Yuen... Our new drama tgt after Lie Huo Xiong Xin

20th March 2010 -- Class at TPY 11am to 1pm, then ate Loy Kee chicken rice with my Taiwan aunty -.-... I ate 3 bowls of rice! Then mum insist us to go Whampoa to help her search the desert... The Taiwan uncle lost his pouch. Went back to Loy Kee to search. Found. Then Darling and I bus home ourselves from Balestier.. 145 then 8.. (: Slept on 8. Damn sleepy!

Went my house, watch a bit of show, then bathed, and off we went for GEMS 5 - labyrinth. Was good, the theme was nice, and all. Dance was great too. Jean Tan's choreo! Flavourful.. I LIKE!
And I like Fas's and Aty's dance.. They're good! :)

Modern I don't understand, so ya. :D

Other items are great too. Joycelyn's, Hazrul's, etc, etc.... Hazrul is funny. (:

Ended at 9plus and we stayed for their briefing cos Rahim misses that.. After that we bus home and ate CHICKEN RICE AGAIN (Grandma's) and watch HK drama (:

SLEPT!

22nd March 2010 -- Woke up late, suppose to wake up at 10am or something! Woke up at 2pm instead. Haha. Watched drama, AGAIN, after cooking egg and ate them with bread :) Sayang is loved by me~ Anyway, then Syg use laptop to do up his stuff (CV) then we get ready and went for Flair's production.. We were late but we got the centre seat, BUT, I was block by a big guy. Half of the show I only got to watch the people at the side of the stage. Hais, nvm.

Not a good venue, but the production was not too bad at all! Jonas, as usual, irritating. Jeremy improved a lot from KO Night 2009.. etc, etc..

After the show, about 9plus, supper with Brian and his sis at Mr Prata. Went home at 10.20pm by bus 28.. Paid bills at Mart first. Then lazy to walk, so took 291 home. Syg didn't wanted to stayed over but he ended up deciding to stay! YAY! SO HAPPY!!! :)

We watched drama! Suppose to watch only 1 episode but Syg watched 3! So naughty! :) Sent his CV while watching then we go to room and get ready to bathe but something happened.....

[Check out Personal Blog]

Then everything was fine only at 4am.. Love my husband still, always. He'll understand and love me too.

Then slept till 6.20am from 5.10am.. But Syg woke up with a super headache. So Syg cab home and slept. He woke up, wanting to go to work but he can't, headache was still there, so he went to AMK polyclinic to get an MC. He's sleeping now! :)

Gonna find my Syg now. LOVES.

2010-03-15T02:47:00.001+08:00

HAHAHAHHAHA, Sayang why u smiling to the floor? And the weird finger...
HAHA

Anyone, you can catch this movement at Youtube (click to view) at 1 minute 42 seconds..

LALALLALALALALALALA, so funny.

2.2 Result

2010-03-15T01:39:00.003+08:00

Click to view. FUCK LA, the system calculated wrongly, now my GPA is 2.71, decreased by 0.02 :( DAMN SIAN. FUCKER NA BEI. But actually I improved lor, just that this semester got lesser subjects thus can't pull the GPA up. ARGH.

All the best for MP.

Anyway, hello Sayang, love you (:

2010-03-14T21:00:00.001+08:00

I love my wife! Too much

Been spending nights with her =) I wish its everyday =) Bye bye

Rahim

2010-03-12T14:18:00.002+08:00

8th March *Monday* - Went for Melissa's (Natasha Studio) Hip Hop Intermediate class with Darling.. Wa lao, difficult! I can't really catch. Haha, but Mel is very nice. She keep asking me to 'bend back more, bend back more'. Lol, pai seh MAX! Sayang sleep over. LALALA :)

9th March *Tuesday* - Went to Pasir Ris to have a dinner and ice cream with Rachel, Eileen and Shervonne! A late mini celebration for Rachel's birthday. Haha, sorry ah, present is gonna be late. =X

10th March *Wednesday* - Suppose to go Anan's class but I woke up at 5pm. HAHA, big joke. Plan change. Sayang came and we watch Fireman until 10plus and Sayang sleep over again!! LALALALALA :)

11th March *Thursday* - Meet Sayang at Eunos bus stop at 6.45pm and then bus to TP to session, ourselves. Youwen and Jody then came over at around 8.30pm. I was damn sleepy so I didn't dance much. Haha, just lie down there and watch them train. Teacher Rahim taught us a short choreo of 2 eights and 2 counts. WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE... Then Syg send me home at 10pm, we share dinner and he watch Fireman, then Syg cab home at 11.30pm...

12th March *Friday* - Today, I woke up at 5am cos my brother woke me up for cordless phone. Then I tried to sleep back but my another brother's phone alarm rang at 7am and no one off it. So I wake up and call Syg to wake him up too. Then I tried to sleep but woke up at 8plus am. End up I wake at 9am for nothing. HAHA, amazing but true.

Then watched HK drama until now, with Sayang's sweet McBreakfast delivery at 10.30am..

Got semester results today, everything passed, GPA currently is at 2.77 LOL, I don't even remember the previous sem's GPA. But I shall console myself by saying I IMPROVED, I think.

Gonna fetch Syg from work for fun. :) Then go to Cheryl's house for a little gathering with Denise and Jasmine, and CREME! :) Gonna be fun, weeeee!

Darling gonna fetch me later and we're heading home to sleep. Got dance class tmr at Outram, gotta rest early.

So yea, lame update. BYE.

2010-03-05T15:00:00.002+08:00

Seriously, Idk if that bitch were to read this. I respect her so I shall not disturb her life anymore.

1) That is not love.
2) They will NOT get married.
3) She is a two-faced bitch that thank me and go around, even on her blog, saying I act like a know a lot. Although names are not listed out. If you're really thankful, you bitch, then shut up and stop saying stuff on your blog like as if I am not the only one that tried to help HIM.
4) That is NOT love, immature mind of yours, and YOUR sister's. Both dumb fucks.

ARGHHH! But never mind, going for dance now after bathing! Have been sessioning this past two days, not very fruitful but never mind, got 2 techniques right now, and tried a tag with Rahim dear.

So yeh, dance for this holiday!!! :D

Peace.

P/s: can't wait to meet girlfriends next week with Creme! (:

2010-03-02T15:31:00.003+08:00

Just a short update of what happened past week.

20th Feb - Floor the love 2010 with Jowell. Red Line didn't win.

27th Feb - Code Edge 3 finals, Zaihar won solo, Spice boy won group. GO SINGAPORE!

1st March - Outing with girlfriends except Jiening got a date and Aqillah idk why. Hahas. Had fun. Had laughs. Jasmine is really still as slow. Lol. (: Much love.

Almost everyday spent with Husband :D :D
(Floor the love, dance class on 27th feb and code edge after that, walk with nonsensical Tyron and Ronald, Jacky, Audrey, etc. Supper with Brian at Teh Tarik, and darling stayed over on Friday and Saturday (: ) LOVES.

BYE

2010-02-25T15:46:00.001+08:00

I'm gonna train harder.

He is too.

-Started from a conflict at a blog-

Wait and see.

2010-02-22T01:04:00.004+08:00

He's the only guy that I fell in love with, so fast.

He's the guy that made me feel protected and supported.

He's the one that his dance make me melt.

The one that his voice, his touch, makes me feel so loved.

He's the one that shouted at me, scolded me, only because I was so fucked up. But he'll not scold/shout at me again, he said.

He is someone that rather leave me than to see me suffer.

He is someone that loves me genuinely.

He is the one that will take care of me, worry for me, put me as priority.

And he, is the only one that have the guts to go against my dad, (even though he is Malay), and prove to him that he loves me. That he is not typical. That my dad can trust him. And until today, he is able to eat out with my family, sleep with me, watch tv at home with me, bathe at my house, and everything. (Sidetrack, I thank my dad for that.)

But in anyway, he loves me. We went through thick and thins together. Hard times, sad times, happy times, lovely times.

We share tears, we share happiness, we share burden, share stress. We share a pillow, share a blanket, share a piece of blanket on the floor to sleep. We share all the things that could be shared in this world.

We had a love. A great one.

And this love, will continue.

And you Rahim, is mine.

"I've have never put anyone before dance. But you are."

And more of these sweet little things from your heart, I'll always remember Rahim. Thank you for being there. For talking to my father. For being there when I am all stressed up. For being there with me when I need you so much. You never fail to turn up in front of me. Thank you for teaching me dance, helping me on my business subjects, and thank you for teaching so many other morals in life to this little immature mind of mine. Thanks for everything darling.

And I will love you as much as you love me.

The joy you gave me is never too little. I just hope that our joy will never end.

I love you dear (:

MUACKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!

2010-02-19T15:19:00.000+08:00

Ok so it appears that what I wore was not a jumper or a romper.

It's a jump suit! Haha, romper is like for shorts. Jump suit is long bottoms.

Ok anyway,

FLOOR THE LOVE is tmr. OMG. Rahim have not been dancing for 5months, fyi. He only get to session maybe thrice?, in these 5 months. How to battle. LOL.

And weekly taught the girls basics every Saturday.

Haha, all the best dear.
I'll be supporting you still (:

Loves.

2010-02-13T22:15:00.002+08:00

Hate cleaning.

Hate cleaning.

Hate cleaning.

Hate cleaning.

Hate cleaning.

Hate cleaning.

Hate cleaning.

Cos you don't even seem like it's from your heart.

2010-02-11T21:05:00.003+08:00

So I skipped girlfriend's dinner gathering.

Fuck that.

Thanks to PROJECTS, like again. Interview ended at 7pm. So even if I were to go for the gathering, I'll reach at 8plus, and leave at 9plus. Or maybe 1 hour was better than nothing.

BUT, something bad happened so yeh. Worst still, not even an hour for me.

So what happened this week was one day, I have to sleep and some fucking asshole slap me in the face because he did not close my room's door (I am a very light sleeper) and I couldn't sleep, and I went out to say "CLOSING THE DOOR WILL KILL YOU HUH?". And that is because he walked in and out of the room, IDK FOR WHAT FUCK, 3 and 4 times without closing the door. And he fucking leave the air con ON. WTF?

And he slapped me. And of course I carry on being guailan since he is so fucking retarded. And he wanted to whack me. -.- Useless shit.

Rahim say I should join Yuyang's gang and just ignore that sucker.

Yup, agreed, and I will do it.

Seems like nowadays I am closer with class girls than girlfriends (in the amount of time spent I mean). It's a nice thing, but a sad thing too.

Oh well.
I am sorry girlfriends. Wonder if you all would read it or not but anyway, sorry for not being present. Maybe you all may talk crap behind my back? Haha, idk but I am kinda afraid though.

Last Saturday after dance bought 2 Shervonne-says-it's-romper-but-the-tag-says-jumper-and-I-think-I-know-it-as-jumper-too thing. HAHA. Ok ya and it cost me $59 + $47.20 = $106.20

Sunday had KFC breakfast. Then headed home to study and then I fried rice for Rahim my tutor for Econs. Studied whole day for Econs test on Monday.

Monday project then watch Rahim dance. Then kena slap.

Tuesday project plus Rahim send me home.

Wednesday, was a shopping day with Rahim. Bought NIKE jacket ($55) and tank top ($19.80), Rahim paid. Some accessories to go with the romper/jumper (IDK LA, fuck). Heels($29.90, didn't know it's so cheap) from Charles and Keith..

Today is school for 2 hours and back home to pack. Before heading home shopped with Rachel awhile. HAHA she agree that my CNY clothes is a little exaggerated but NICE! X)

Gonna buy nail polish, bag, and more bangles. Tmr and Saturday. Rahim wants to buy a MP4.

Ok, shall continue packing my stuff. Get ready for new year!

I think I really miss girlfriends. Jocelyn included. I wanna see their hair too! Like Jiening said. X)

And I think I should forget the past and give him a chance cos he's change is so visible.
He's still lovely.

And I love him.
Oh and he loves me (:

2010-02-10T11:28:00.000+08:00

If you don't respect yourself, don't expect to have respect from anyone.

Thank you, I really hope things will change for the better. Although I really don't wanna put hopes anymore.

Why is a relationship so difficult to handle?
Can I quit?

Why am I always soft hearted.
It's been broken so many times I hope it won't be broken again.

Can you promise it?

2010-02-09T11:18:00.003+08:00

Things I've learnt.

Don't blame anyone for anything that happened. Blame yourself.

Admit your fault. Reflect on yourself.

Be yourself. Your friends can go smoke, take drugs, drink, clubbing; you don't have to follow if you don't want to. People can do whatever they want. Treat others well, even if they don't treat you back well, you can be proud that you did the best you could.

Simple as that.

Oh anyway, home really sucks. Other than the responsible dad and kind grandma at home. And also my nice second brother maybe, other things are plain bad.

2010-02-08T10:47:00.001+08:00

Will this stay fine and happy?

2010-02-05T02:14:00.002+08:00

Click link if you wanna watch.

Vaginal Birth

PLEASE DO NOT WATCH IF YOU CAN'T TAKE IT.
Natural Birth Video.

Gosh. I'm really afraid now.

Andara - Thailand Resort

2010-02-05T01:39:00.000+08:00

Andara - Phuket

I HAVE TO go here. With you.

2010-02-05T01:08:00.001+08:00

You are the one that said the song 'Mad' is so true.

But why are you opposing it now.

I DON'T GET IT!

I can't sleep in this. My heart is breaking.
I really can't take this.

I need to runaway. But.

Where can I run to..

Where are you. I really need you.....

2010-02-03T07:45:00.001+08:00

Why is it that when a boyfriend gets jealous, he's cute.

But when a girlfriend gets jealous, she's being irritating?

My day is started with a bite of mc Muffin and lime juice with gastric.

AWESOME WAY TO START! (:

2010-02-03T05:13:00.004+08:00

I really really can't take this. How can I even explain. I can't. This pain is beyond words. I really wanna die.
Someone kill me. I beg you.
I'm really not that strong.
What are the easiest way to die? With no pain?
Someone please tell me.
Will be grateful.

Valentines' day is coming soon.. Our anniversary too.

2010-02-03T00:51:00.003+08:00

Hadn't been sleeping well for 2days! Woohoo. Not eating well too.

Vomited last night in the toilet. No one is here to sayang me!

It's ok.. I have to learn to be independent.

This time round, I'm gonna keep it all to myself.

Thanks Shervonne for making me laugh today in school for the LiuChang thing..

Although I really think my laughter is very fucking fake. I don't wanna pull up one fucking face infront of everyone when they didn't owe me anything.

But sorry if I do breakdown sometimes.
I can't take this.

Projects are doing fine. I am NOT going to grumble and complain over project when I am not doing MUCH. Although it is still stressful la, cos I am doing something.

Some people just grumble when they are doing nothing. Idk what the fuck they grumble for.

And anyway, let's see how many days are these eating and puking thing gonna last for. Sleepless nights. Seriously, sleeping with a broken heart, NOT NICE AT ALL.

So let's not sleep. I don't wanna roll on the bed and feel pain.

I finally found this true love. But it's heartbreaking, painful and scary.
Should I be happy?

Let's take a summary of my life.
Family - tired of that woman.
Friends - No time to meet them.
School - Projects. Tests. Quizzes.
Love - Heartbreaking.

I really don't know when can I find someone that genuinely loves me for who I am. And would always love me, take care of me, protect me, support me.

I don't need anything.. I just needed some understanding.. Some love. And I mean real, sincere love.

Am I asking too much?

And as you can see, this post of no aim. And I am just retardedly, don't wanna sleep, just running away from that bed. Just... don't wanna face the fearful fact.

That you're gone.

My love is gone.

Long, long time ago.

Something To Share

2010-02-02T02:59:00.008+08:00

Extracted - Aqillah's Site

Don’t care if you have a boyfriend or girlfriend right now.

I don’t care if you are a guy or a woman .

Just read this, it will make a difference.

If only everyone could see this and understand it.

When she starts cursing at you trying to act all tough
Kiss her and tell her you love her

When she’s quiet
Ask her whats wrong

When she ignores you
Give her your attention

When she pulls away
Pull her back

When you see her at her worst
Tell her she’s beautiful

When you see her start crying
Just hold her and don’t say a word

When you see her walking
Sneak up and hug her waist from behind

When she’s scared
Protect her

When she steals your favorite hoodie
Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night

When she teases you
Tease her back and make her laugh

When she doesn’t answer for a long time
reassure her that everything is okay

When she looks at you with doubt
Back yourself up

When she says that she loves you
she really does more than you can understand

When she grabs at your hands
Hold her’s and play with her fingers

When she bumps into you;
bump into her back and make her laugh

When she tells you a secret
keep it safe and untold

When she looks at you in your eyes
dont look away until she does

When she says it’s over
she still wants you to be hers

When she reposts this bulletin
she wants you to read it

- Stay on the phone with her even if she’s not saying anything

- When she’s mad hug her tight and don’t let go

- When she says she’s ok don’t believe it, talk with her because 10 yrs later she’ll remember you

- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her

- Treat her like she’s all that matters to you

- Stay up all night with her when she’s sick

- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think it’s stupid

- Give her the world.

- Let her wear your clothes

- When she’s bored and sad, hang out with her

- Let her know she’s important.

- Don’t talk about other girls around her (nahh)

- Kiss her in the pouring rain (nahh)

- When she runs up to you crying, the first thing you say is:
“Whose ass am i kicking baby?”

But guys, no point doing the things if your heart doesn't feel like doing it.
Sincerity that counts. Not just doing for the sake of doing.

Cried while reading this because the oh so sweet love was just like these before.
I really don't know when did it changed.
Heart sank so deep. I can't even feel it.
All I feel is pain.

2010-02-01T23:13:00.006+08:00

Rahim.
1st February 2010; 7pm-8.50pm..
It's just a small issue.
But seems like it's my fault for what happened.
WHY.

I don't know why. I will try and stay strong. I won't let myself die.

Although, my only darling, you already killed me.

I really can't survive with all the overwhelming pain and stress.
Family. School. Girlfriend-less.
All I needed was the understanding you said you'd give me.
I don't know why you can't.
I don't want to be so stubborn to think that it's because you don't love me.

I'll just stop thinking and go on with life without you.
I will stay strong; not.

I will remember the first time you massaged me.

It is just the purest of pain.

/Edited - 2.52am 2nd Feb 2010
/Read through my past posts from April 09 till today. I see the big change in this relationship.
/Why isn't it happy anymore.
/It's good anyway it ended.
/How do I sleep with a broken heart..
/I really don't understand what caused the change.
/I'll just face it.

R: 'JIBYE'
I won't forget that tone. That word. That words. That sound. That voice.

That pain.

2010-01-28T12:16:00.002+08:00

I saw it.

I saw him.

And her.

I saw, a bed.

I saw everything.

I approached him, asked him, questioned him.

He told me "It's just fucking. At least I'm still with you."

I wanna die.
Can I?

I can't. And I jumped awake.

P/s: Girls, I got addicted to gossiping. (:

2010-01-27T06:32:00.002+08:00

Hate going to school nowadays.

Everyday is a rushing day. Rush to school, rush for projects, rush for Econs, rush to bathe, rush to eat, rush to sleep.

Damn it, hate this life.

Seriously hate projects. Yes I am not doing anything. Because I really hate being controlled. I don't even know why the hell am I in this course.

P/s: I really got a bad feeling.

2010-01-25T10:38:00.002+08:00

Updates to keep track of what I did.

Friday, 22nd Jan 2010.
Went to school for EWA at 9am. Suppose to have make up lesson but I skipped. Really damn tired.
Sorry group mates. I really suck and seriously pulling you guys down. Sorry Liani, Shervonne, Zi Ang, Ming Qing.

So I went, and met Rahim. His house, chatted and realise that things should really change. Let's just hope for the better. I won't hope much anymore.

He stayed over at my house.

Saturday, 23rd Jan 2010.
Dance class at Balestier, 11am to 1pm. I didn't join. Just went to sit in. So woke up at 9am and we were late, so cabbed down, the driver was either inexperience or he just wanna cheat our money a little. Zzzz.

NVM.

Dance class was funny today. Hope the girls enjoyed it. Saw Chewei Kokping and Shi Kang but they didn't saw me.

After dance class, went soya bean (YAY!) and then went town by bus 131, then some bus I forgot.

Alighted at Far East then went the mall opposite of it to pee. Lols. Saw quite a number of nice sneakers which I can't afford. Na bei!

Decided to watch movie, so went Cathay to buy tickets, which we got the shortest but slowest queue. ZZZZ. The guy at the counter, I suppose, a newbie, was working damn slowly. DAMN IT.

Whatever, after that went POMO to eat the ISHI MURA (if I'm not wrong). Hope Sayang likes it. (:

Got stared by two retards today. I don't understand why humans still can't grow up. I suppose they are at least 16 years old. Stare stare stare, CHILDISH!

First was this dancer girl, scanned me throughout with the 'what-a-poser, i-can-dance-better-than-you' look. Idiotic. Of course I ignored la. Come on, stare what. Dance isn't about competing. Stupid.

Second was a BOOCH! She's like a head shorter than me and she glared at me like she wanted to fight just because I walked too slowly and blocked her way or something. FIGHT LA. Stupid BOOCH. Her girlfriend is even taller than her. She can fight with Rahim if she wants. Dumbfuck.

Watch Tooth Fairy at 5.10pm. =) NICE SHOW! Hilarious~ (:
Ended at 7pm and went victoria street there(i think) to eat chicken wings as I'm hungry. Sent me home by bus 12 and Sayang went home.

Sunday 24th Jan 2010.
Went Sayang house at 10am. which he was still asleep, no one at home, thus I stood outside till 10.30am, his parents came back and his mum said to him something like 'Your wife outside already you still sleeping'. Lols.

Yehh, so just slacked at his house, ate egg with rice, then watched Dog Soldiers, then slept, woke up at 4pm, ate murtabak by his mum, use computer, ate again, watched Rob B Hood the Jackie Chan movie.

His mum's coconut jelly is so yummy! Haha.

He packed his stuff for book in and it's 9.50pm already. Hurriedly left his house to sent me back home. Then he went off to rush for last bus home.

Today is Monday, gotta go to school soon. Dreadful.
Lab test.

Sucks.

Hate school.

Holding on, persisting.

2010-01-22T09:14:00.000+08:00

Sweet chicken pau is salty today..

I miss the old Rahim.

2010-01-22T04:59:00.002+08:00

Dated 22 Jan 2010, 3 - 5am..

Where is the love, we had.
The joy, we shared..
The happiness, the smiles..

The care, the love, the pain for one another?

I am really tired.
As much as I need you in my life, I need you out of my life.
Suddenly lost my directions. What is love.

What, IS love.

My heart feels like it'd been thrown down a tall building a few hundred times..
Do you know?

It is really really very painful.
A goodbye without a kiss, you said, you would never do that to me.
A shout, a scold from you, you said, would never happen to me.
Love and care, support and understanding from you, you said, will always be there.

I don't really how am I going to survive through this. But I will.
I must.

I need.

But I hate to.
Cos I really, really, love you. Only you.

2010-01-18T20:18:00.002+08:00

My blog is so boring cos my life is so boring!

Everyday awaits book out of darling. Lucky this is the last week! X)
Sayang's POC (replacement for POP) this friday. YAYNESS!!!!

Relationship had not been so good since he booked in for NS.. Hope things will change soon.

School is so busy, piled with projects. Shitty life in school. Lucky I have the girls.

BYE

P/s: Cheryl, stay strong(: Although I don't know anything, I still wish you all the best. I believe Jiening and Jocelyn would give you the best support and advise. Love you babe.

Updates

2010-01-17T20:27:00.002+08:00

So Sayang booked out(:

So yeh, stayed at my house to chiong econs for Friday. Saturday dance, then econs again.

And some fucker start to be fucked up and I ran out of house awhile.

And I sprain my leg for the first time! Lols. On 17 Jan, 4am or so.
Cool man. I can't say "I've never sprain my leg before for my whole life!". Haha. Now I know how it feels, and it sucks. Can't walk properly; attracting so much attention. Zzzzzzz.

Sunday (17 Jan 2010)
Sayang slept here at 5am, until 11am or so. Left home at 12pm to Changi General Hospital to get MC (failed) then went Syg home to eat Rojak mama, do econs and get ready to book in!

Right ankle is still as bad thus I can't send darling in.. :( Syg just bused to Woodlands to train to CCK at 7.50pm..

Sorry Sayang late :(

Ok that's about it. Gonna stay back everyday this week for project already I think. Whatever. Just wanna pass this stupid diploma and go into counselling course somewhere.

Goodnight.

2010-01-14T20:06:00.005+08:00

It's been very long since I watch Rahim dearest dance..

And now that NS..... IS HOLDING HIM BACK!

SOMEONE SCOLDED THE INSPECTOR (THAT GUY IS A BIG TIME RETARD TO SCOLD INSPECTOR)

AND HELLO? WHAT HAS IT GOT TO DO WITH RAHIM AND THE REST? THEY DON'T NEED TO GET CONFINED OK. THAT IS SO UNFAIR TO THE REST!

1) Rahim have dance class to conduct on Saturday and has already paid for the studio.

2) He needs to help me with my Econs project.

3) Rahim does what he need to do in camp. He do his best for tests, he polishes his boots, he get punished all the time because of his squad mates(including this time), he follows the rules, he march properly.

I DON'T SEE THE REASON HE NEED TO GET CONFINED.

AND THE M-- OF HIS CAN SAY "It's none of my business".

HELL. IT IS NONE OF RAHIM'S BUSINESS TOO THAT THAT STUPID GUY SCOLDED THE INSPECTOR.

Isn't a M-- suppose to be helping her 'kids' whenever they're in trouble?
YOU HEARTLESS THING.

STOP TRYING TO BULLY THOSE GUYS UNDER NS.

YOU SIRS AND MAMS AND F.Is TRY AND TREAT THOSE UNDER REGULAR THE WAY YOU PEOPLE TREAT THOSE UNDER NS.

SEE WHO STILL WANNA BE POLICE.

ARGH!

2010-01-13T22:13:00.001+08:00

Basically, I suck at everything.

-as a student
-as a daughter
-in dance
-as a girlfriend/wife
-as a niece
-as a sister
-as a classmate/ project mate

and now, I suck as a girl-friend. Fuck.
How fucked up can life get?

I don't really need money. Ok the basic need is a definite yes.

BUT

I want and need happiness MORE, MUCH MORE than money.

P/s: C, I love you, sincerely hope you're alright.

2010-01-08T14:17:00.001+08:00

I really, don't know how to handle this..

I wanna, run away.. far away.

I want my life.

Rahim, will you, please come back... to me?

Updates!

2010-01-04T17:00:00.002+08:00

First movie of 2010!

2nd January 2010, 5.20pm, Century Square

Alvin and the Chipmunks, 2!

Nice nice! Love it!

Funny and cute. :D

Darling loves cute stuff anyway. XD

Had a good laugh, and some touching scenes as well! (:

Cheerios!

MY 2009

2009-12-30T17:45:00.006+08:00

2009 is amazing to me. Here goes:

I forgotten if anything huge happened in January and February. I became single though. So let's start with March 2009.

MARCH 2009

March was during my school holidays anyway. So yeh, results were quite alright and all. That is not important. AMAZING THING HAPPENED TO ME.

Rahim, Bin Abdul Rahman. On 24th March 2009. We just fell in 'like' through MSN. Nothing of sort ever happened to me, or him. We were amazed by how fast we fell in love, and everything. Thank everything on Earth that made us know each other. So in short, thank TPDE, for creating that argument with me. Haha. Not being sarcastic but, meeting Rahim is really the best thing this year. Wait. 2nd best.

So we met on 28th March 2009, 7am. Clarke Quay, Cathay, watched movie.
He kissed me on the forehead.
We held hands. It was warmth.

"Cos I think I'm in love.. But where got people so fast one? Ha ha.."

APRIL 2009
Next meet up was on 2nd April. Went Marina Square, caught 2 movies.
Our first official date.
He say I'm sexy. Ha.
We kissed, we behaved like a couple with the fast-pounding heartbeat.
We were very happy.
He "proposed" to me.
He sent me home for the first time.

7th April, we got together, officially. Which everyone already thought we're together.
He's very supportive.
I love him.
He loves me too.

We're happy together.

And this is the best thing that happened this year.

17th April, Jasmine's birthday celebration.
We succeeded in surprising her. And I think it's the first time my dear girlfriends meet the love of my life.

Thanks Rahim dear for helping out, and Emily and Danny.

Jasmine enjoyed her birthday, we did too.
Love my girlfriends.

MAY 2009
/Edited

Hi! Back to blogging.

Ok so May.

Nothing much happened in May I think. Not much. Hahaha.

If there is, remind me.

JUNE 2009

Darling's birthday plus term test.

5th June 2009

F805 girls made a birthday wish video for him. XD

I watched him practice dance with Dt. Went Marina Square after that. Bought him a wallet. (:

17th June 2009 (??? Was it?)

Cheryl's birthday after Rahim's Semi-finals for KONight. (RedLine won)

19th June 2009
Surprise Denise in TP with Cheryl and Jiening

26th June 2009
KONight finals, RedLine won Hiphop category, and overall champion as well.
Proud of Rahim.
Proud to be Mrs Rahim X)

July 2009
30th July
Had a very great birthday this year!
F805 girls suprised me in DMSD lol. With Shervonne's loud voice and the paper moving at the door. LOL.

But THANKS! :D So much appreciated. (YAYA, SURE!!~)

31st July
Meet up with Girlfriends(except Aqillah only came for awhile, Evelyn too, and Denise didn't make it :( And, including Jocelyn! (: ) , Azri, Daniel, Hendra, Ben and Rio came for 1min, Jackie, I forgot what is the guy with Azri's name.. and of course, my darling.

Went Marina Square to have initial plan, Seoul Garden. But changed to Pizza hut :)
Afterward all went to Esplanade top to slack which they surprised me with a small mango cake(Thanks Jocelyn (:) and start off with presents! Awwww damn sweet (: Thanks loves....
THANKS!

August 2009
National day
-F805 girls wore Red together. HAHA.

9th August
-Outing with 14!! And Darling :D
Went Marina Square to eat at Seoul Garden (without Aqillah) and then watched Fireworks and took pictures :D Ben was back in Singapore that day.

Back tracking,
7th August 2009
Love grew much stronger between Rahim and I. (:
Secret!

September 2009
27th Sep
Aqillah's birthday, which I missed too :( ARGH!

Nothing else? Yehh...

October 2009
Jiening's birthday 12th October!
Ate at Astons(PS). I reached earlier than them! Lol. Bought her a necklace. Was happy. They went lesbian-ing. Lols.

Worked with Rachel (-.- SIAN) haha..... Made new friends, like Fionne, Joyce, Chien Yee, Wee Teng! X)

November 2009
Shervonne's birthday. Stupidly bought the cake myself, and waited downstairs alone :( LOLS. At least she's surprised and appreciates it! HAHA. X)

December 2009
Went for Netball Nations cup on............. idk what date. HAHA!
With 6girls (with Alvin) and Darling (:

Evelyn's birthday 29th 2009
Met girls at TPY NTUC to buy ingredients at 5.30pm.
Went Jiening ahma house to cook and eat (:

Hope she likes the card and present and the cooking.

Ok and countdown to 2010 was done at Saffron Tampines. LOL. With Saiful(Rahim's squad mate) and Darling. Prata with Teh Tarik.
Before that was dance at TCC(TP) with Keiths and Kevin.

Loves.

Special shoutout to 6girls, Jocelyn, F805 girls, and Rahim darling!
Thanks for giving me such a pleasant 2009.. Let's hope that 2010 will be great for all of us!

*1. Relationship with F805 girls got closer! (:
*2. Meeting Rahim husband was plan amazing :)
*3. Less meeting with girlfriends for me. But hope 2010 will have a change! :(

OK BYE! HAVE A GOOD 2010! (:

2009-12-30T15:41:00.006+08:00

Do it if you wanna.

[From Cheryl's blog. And I don't know where is the original source of it]

Anyway, I choose cruel, too(as Cheryl's). What do you choose?

Need me explain more?

2009-12-25T11:34:00.003+08:00

I don't need to be pregnant to have my husband pampering me (:

Sayang go buy breakfast for me :D

YAY.

Thanks to stupid period and cramps :(
I skipped meeting up with - and -. [Don't know whether it's a secret so can't say]

Sayang love me :D
BYEBYE.

2009-12-23T08:59:00.004+08:00

Some people says I'm a little smart but I am lazy.

Some people say I can look better but I am lazy.

Some people say I can have more money but I am lazy.

Some say I am lazy.

Some say I can help in the chores at house but I am lazy.

Darling Rahim says I can do better in dance but I am ultra super lazy.

But so? Lazy is me. I am lazy.
I am happy for being me(:

Happiness is the true success. This is something EVERYONE in this society now, have neglected.

I don't wanna study so freakin' hard and when someone were to ask me, what do you wanna do after graduating from poly? And my answer be "I don't know leh, go University first then see how lor."

NO. I believe to have a aim in life first.

I admire and respect those that already have an idea on what they wanna become. Somewhere in their mind or in their heart.

I don't admire those that insist on going to University and when I ask them why, they become dumbfounded.

Bullshit people.

Adults nowadays work, and they wait for lunch break. Then after lunch break, wait for time to go home. Other than that, they wait for their pay to arrive. [Quoted by Rahim, lol]

Are they happy working? If no, fucking quit your job la. It's not all money that counts. I still believe in that.

But sometimes if for example, you're in love with acting and you wanna become an actor, you gotta know if you've got the talent for it first. LOL.

Like William Hung for example, he loves singing I suppose, but everyone knows, he himself knows, he is not really talented in that area. But he tried. And now he stops (I think), which is good. Because he knows he can't survive in singing industry. Yeh, gotta know your strengths and weaknesses.

Happiness is the true success.

Ok bye.

2009-12-18T10:57:00.001+08:00

Oh anyway, I forgot,

Thanks girlfriends for supporting me (:
Really grateful and it's so........... sweet of you laaaa :D

Thanks.

Love you all tooo!!!!!
Jasmine Aqillah Evelyn Jocelyn Jiening Cheryl Denise!!

2009-12-18T10:48:00.001+08:00

Seriously, screw yourself.

If I can, I won't take money from you. To me you're worthless already. I will only need money from you, nothing else. Who do you think you are.

I have basic respect thus I give in. Mother fucker. You suck as a son too la, please. You always think giving people money means showing care and concern. NO. You're a retard that don't understand that.

You're still a fucking stubborn bullshit asshole.

And, I HATE YOU.

FUCK YOURSELF!!!!!

2009-12-17T18:43:00.006+08:00

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK

I fucking hate this place big time. I swear, double swear, I WILL GET OUT OF HERE ASAP. I WILL.

2009-12-14T16:56:00.000+08:00

Weekly updates with Sayang (:

2009-12-14T12:02:00.007+08:00

And a little of girlfriend (:

Thursday 10 Dec 2009.
Went Liani's house to study. We always create havoc in her house leh. Take her food, etc. And this time, she cooked spaghetti for us. MUAHA.

Studied(not really) till 6pm or so when Darling called me and say he's outta camp. He's SICK! :( Leg muscle aching badly and fever 37.9 degrees.

WENT TO FETCH MY DARLING AT AMK MRT! :)

YAYNESS! Can see him.

Went his house, eat dinner, went home, sleep on the floor (: LALALA.

FRIDAY! 11 Dec 2009
Went to school for EWebapp Term test, which I think I'd fail. HAHA. Paper starts at 9.30am, I reached at 9.40am. Pro-ness.

Went off at 10.08am.

Met Jonas to get songs and videos after eating at Biz Park. Spaghetti and malay stall rice. =)

Then went Sayang's house to slack.

Went Netball at TPY with GIRLFRIENDS! :D
Jiening and Cheryl came first. Then Jasmine Evelyn and her bf, then Aqillah, then Denise. =)
The matches were hot; the last one only. HAHA. Tanzania VS Singapore.
Match ended at 9.30pm or so. We went to TPY interchange McDonald's to chat. (Jiening Cheryl Denise and Jasmine) Until 11.20pm.

Then went back my house at around 10plus pm. Ta bao-ed Nasi Pattaya to eat.

After eating, Sayang washed the plate and....... we both fell asleep on sofa till 10am! LOL!
We both don't know why we're so tired. My dad woke us up somemore. Haha.

SATURDAY 12 Dec 2009
Then we went to eat breakfast and I wanted to cut hair, but have to wait very long :(
So I didn't.

Use computer till 4pm. Wanted to go Mustafa but too late already, thanks to me, so lazy to bathe and prepare. Sorry dear. :(

Cab back to his house to have dinner with his family at Hougang. Celebration of his Mum's birthday (:

Hougang plaza. With his family and Ash.
Had grilled chicken and fish & chips. Syg had steak with mushroom sauce. :D

Accompanied his mum home after trying to search for Nora's barbie doll and bought some donuts.

Sayang sent me home! :D Reached at 10.45pm or so. With my 1st aunt still at home. Stress-ness when Syg went in. But was alright. Though I really start to hate this place.

We used computer till some time, went my room to chat till around 4am, and Syg cabbed home.

SUNDAY 13 Dec 2009
Reached Syg house at 11.30am. Sorry Syg I late :(
Had lunch Rojak mama by his mum(NICE!) and slack in his room. Wanted to watch dance videos but his bro's laptop couldn't read the files. Both of us fell asleep. When we woke up it's 4.45pm already. Kinda late. Hurried down to buy biscuits and some groceries.

Hurried back home and iron his shirt, pack his stuff, Syg bathed and ate more Rojak mama. :D

Cab to YCK mrt at 6.35pm. :( Trained to CCK. We're damn early. His mates were late.
And, bye Sayang.. :( As he cabbed in with his mates.

So I went home alone, train to Woodlands, bus 168 to Tampines, and back home with 291. Boredom without Sayang :(

Now Termbreak has start. I'm like so PLANLESS. -.-
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Ok bye.

How to measure your bra size correctly.

2009-12-09T11:55:00.000+08:00

http://www.freebeautytips.org/brasize.html

7 out of 10 women wears the bra of wrong size.

2009-12-09T09:43:00.003+08:00

Okayyyy....

One paper down, 2 more to go!
One more today and one more on FRIDAY.

Gonna meet girlfriends on Friday (: Excited.

Just simple update so as to not forget what I did.
FRIDAY, Sayang book out(: Fetch him from AMK MRT then went his house to eat dinner. Went back home to study Econs. All the way till 5plus am.

SATURDAY, woke up early at 9am for Econs paper(TermTest). Syg sent me to school and waited for me. 11-12pm. I came out at 11.30am and we left for dance at TPY. Reached studio only at 1.20pm. Class started only at 1.30pm. ZZZ

Jowell and her friend joined the class (: Hope they enjoyed it.
Went soya bean place for a drink and some food.
Went back AMK hub by bus 130.

Bought sausages and sushi. Went darling's house to eat sushi. Slept. All the way till 8plus pm.

Was god damn sleepy and tired! LOVE! (:

Woke up cos of coldness and light. Woke darling up.
He bathe and we left for my house. Watched coma, which I don't understand at all, and Sayang beside me sleeping on the sofa. Said he want a 15mins nap. Which ended up till 45mins.

It was 2.45am already. I went bathe. (:
Then slept at around 4plus am. Sayang went home and sleep.

SUNDAY. Cab to Syg house at 1.30pm. Ate lunch, Asam Pedas! (: NICE. With boiled cabbage with ONION AND EGG AND CHILLI. And then went to TTS hospital to get MC. Sayang is really sick, fever and headache, especially at night, but nabei, that doc guailan say Syg looks fine, etc etc. Thanks to those idiots infront of darling that feign sick. Idiots! THANKS TO YOU PEOPLE, those that are really sick can't get MC!

Train back home at BISHAN, bus 55 to cut hair and buy Tiger biscuit.

Went back his home and started to pack pack pack. Polish boots, iron shirt. Love helping Syg do his stuff. Love love love.

Sad part was to send him off :(
His dad drove us to YCK MRT with his mum and sis.
Can't hug or kiss him anymore. Sobs.

MONDAY no paper. Studied with Eileen Weeqi and Liani. Funny thing was we went here and there in school, finding a nice spot to study, but ended up walking to bus stop and going to Liani's house. LOL.

So, studied at Liani's house and talked crap. Ha. Ate dinner at her house too. ASAM PEDAS AGAIN! HAHA. With a side dish of fried egg with onion and chili, and fried cabbage. TOTALLY THE SAME AS WHAT I ATE ON SUNDAY AT DARLING'S! LOL!

Ok then Liani's dad sent us home individually! (:
Went home, talked with dear and slept.

TUESDAY had a paper in the morning. Was alright. Lunched at Techno first then studied at Weeqi's cousin's condo with Shervonne, Eileen and Weeqi. Nice place. Dance a lil with them while waiting for Weeqi to finish writing notes.

Went back home after that. (:

Today is WEDNESDAY. Have a paper at 3.30pm. Suppose to meet the rest at 10am but I'm here copying code Shervonne sent me. :)
AND BLOGGING.

Ok bye.

2009-12-06T21:57:00.004+08:00

Zoe Tay can't dance for nuts.

Why Mediacorp always make her dance for charity?

Damn......